Sorry if this annoys the suck it up and get on with it brigade. I'm just feeling down today. I'm anemic and have had a week of feeling weak, run down and tired. Id only just started feeling better before this lock down. I'm worried I'm slipping into a lazy life and I'll be so anxious once we have to return to normal. I'm used to walking my child to school. It's a mile away and therefore two hours of exercise each day. I feel whilst this lockdown is happening I'm loosing my energy. I've not taken the kids for a walk yet. I feel so torn about it. My partner is doing the no walks and doesn't feel it's worth the risk. I feel a walk might be good today.
Also I'm sorry for writing this. But I'm scared about the fact we will all get this virus. "most of us" I've read it on here a few times. There are millions of us in the country and already a thousand dead. How many people will die if most of us get it? I've seen children with it this week. I've read stories about 21 year olds dying on the sofa as help wasn't coming (she was classed as not priority due to age etc) a middle aged man was found dead in his flat after his girlfriend realised he hadn't text her.
I just keep thinking about my own kids. How I don't want to catch this incase my body can't fight it. What if I get sent to hospital and can't see them again.
I don't mean to be dramatic. But I am not the healthiest person due to my anemia. Sometimes I can't function for days.
I can't stop worrying about my parents.
We are ok being at home. I know we are lucky but it's so hard watching my kids knowing they should be doing so much more. We've had plenty of fun at home. But after just a week at home my 5 year old has asked about going out, mixing and going to see her friends at school. It's so hard to think this could be months! Then when she does get to go back to school I'll be scared of this virus coming into the household and potientally killing us..
I'm so sorry for this post. It's just getting me down abit.