Anyone else having a meltdown???

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I've worked really hard to recover from anxiety and depression. Came off ADs in August and I take maybe 1 or 2 beta blockers a week for anxiety symptoms.

I felt like I was doing really well but the last few days and the numbers of deaths and infections have just floored me. I'm so so scared of going back to where I was 6 months ago. I was loving being this happy confident person again but I honestly feel like I've just been hit over the head with a bat.

I'm scared and I miss my mum and my sister. My eldest daughter is isolating with my parents because she has a fraught relationship with us and said she couldn't cope with 3 weeks of just stuck in the house with me, her dad and sister. I want to hold her tight, god I miss her so much

I was awake all last night and it looks like tonight will be the same.

I'm sorry if this reads as really self indulgent. I think I just needed to write it all down.

OP, it's really hard getting through this I know. I am just taking one day at a time. It's scary. I'm not sleeping well either.

Try and look after yourself. Do things that give you a little bit of joy. I've found walking in the fresh air really helps my mood.

Try the Calm app for sleep meditations. Matthew McConaughy even reads one of the stories! His voice is lush.

OP, you’re not alone in feeling like this. Ring your GP and see if you could go back on meds? Just to get you through this time? 💐

OP it's a scary time. I don't know if this will help but it gave me a glimmer of home when I saw it

twitter.com/DarylDust/status/1243532551219826690

"925 healed in Italy in the last 24 hours. I see no one sharing. If they were dead, everyone would share!"

The video made me tear up a little bit.

We'll get through this

Know exactly how you feel. After a nasty assault I suffered years of agoraphobia. Only been managing to go out the last 6 months and now I can't go out I know it's going to set me right back.

Yeah. Silently having a meltdown here, terrified, but clinging on to the kindness of others that's been shown during this, and the medical staff are hero's they are amazing and way braver than i could ever be.

I had one last Thursday, I'm a bit ashamed that I did. I narked at a Whatsapp group, posted a vague 'I'm Sad' message on Facebook and got quite drunk!

I am generally a capable, happy, get on with it sort of person but this is worrying me. I am in Singapore (probably best place to be) but my adult children, their partners, my siblings and all my in-laws are in Scotland and I am worried. I was due to go home early May for 6 months but that wont happen so my plans are fucked. I do volunteering with vulnerable children (all checked) and I feel I am wasted sitting here.

I have decided that I am lucky to not be in the thick of things and I think the front-line medical staff are amazing.

I feel like everyday is one big melt down at the moment. And I’m autistic so literally, a melt down!

Thanks guys. It helps to know I'm not alone. I definitely don't want to go back on meds though, the coming off them was so hard last time I don't want to go through that again.

I'm still having random bursts of crying but trying to make a plan for a morning run every day. We live quite rural so I'm not likely to see anyone. Hoping that helps lift my mood a little

Yes my son's behaviour has deteriorated. He threatened to throw me down the cellar steps and has shoved me into a radiator. Thumping heart and sweating .
And I have school pressing for him to do work . I dare not say how it is to school

I am having a massive wobble today. It’s my birthday and I just want to see my mom and dad 😰 I’m trying to work from home with a three year old and ten year old and it is impossible, I could curl up into a ball and cry! Also just hearing bad news about two friends who started new roles on 4th March so will get no money now they have been furloughed and I could cry for them.
I no this is so self indulgent and all of this is for the right reasons but I just can’t pick myself up off the floor today.

Yes op I am struggling particularly today so can sympathise. Trying to distract myself.

I am less worried about the virus and more struggling with having to stay indoors. I feel like I need to bolt and make a run for it, and it's a really overwhelming feeling. Feeling so trapped and suffocated inside. Its been 3 weeks of self isolation for me.

I am trying to take comfort in knowing there will sadly be a few of us feeling this way, for whatever reason. Hugs.

Hi OP and evryone else. You are definitely not alone. I am normally quite a mentally stable person but I admit I am struggling at the moment. I dont think I have got through a day for the last 10 days without crying at some time. I am a cryer, and this is how I let my emotions out. Reading through all thses comments I almost feel guilty for being upset because it sounds like most of you have way more reason to be upset than I do. @Onthemoors I work in a school, please do tell them how it is. We have lots of families that are struggling in different ways. Our pastoral team are really busy at the moment, you wont be the only one.