It's all begining to sink in. I've felt like a spectator up until this week.
On Friday I was furloughed and my job is far from secure. I am a student veterinary nurse, i have done all my theory exams and just have my clinical exams. This was meant to be June. They have been postponed for at least three months. It's a three year course.
My DP is self employed, no work.
My mum has 4x a day care and I can only reasonably visit to deliver food and run out the door.
We are not entitled to a mortgage holiday as for some reason we are a month in arrears.
So far we are healthy and I'm getting over what could have quite possibly Bern c-19 So that's something.
I was doing ok until today - it's all starting to hit home and I'm scared I'm going to lose it.
I am on anxiety medication and have a bpd diagnosis which means I catastrophise everything. I've been the voice of reason until today but now feel like rocking on the corner.