Terrified I’m going to die

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I’ll preface by saying my mum died 7 months ago and since then I’ve been very worried I’m going to die and leave my little boy without a mother.

I’m terrified I’m going to get covid19 and die. I’m overweight and although I’ve lost weight recently I can’t magically shrink overnight. I’ve gone from BMI of 39.5 to 37. I also had tonsillitis recently which has left my chest a bit tight still. Other than that I’m fit and well, I don’t smoke, rarely drink alcohol, get my 5 a day etc. Before lockdown I was walking my dogs in the woods for an hour a day and I do yoga with my son.
But I’m so worried I’m fat and getting over being ill and am going to catch this and die. I’ve started doing the PE with Joe Wicks with my boy to try to get fitter. But again Rome wasn’t built in a day.
I’m so scared and I don’t feel there’s anything I can do.

Op you poor thing.
You recognise that your own dm death has unfortunately made it you think more of death than usual.
Keep your risk of catching this low. Enjoy the time

with your little boy.

This is my biggest fear too - not for myself, but for the thought of my children having to suffer a loss.

You are doing everything you can. Perhaps this will be the event that makes you reassess your lifestyle. The probability is, you will not have any lasting negative repercussions from this virus. But you could have some very positive ones. It's actually more probably that this is going to end up making you healthier than you would otherwise have been, and you could well end up living longer and being around for your children for more years, not less.

I’d already reassessed it when mum died, hence losing weight already. But I don’t know if I’ve done enough.

I feel just the same x sadly there have been other posts on the same subject where people have revelled in being total cunts so if I were you I’d see if MN will delete this before they ruin your post and make you feel worse. The odds are still in our favour though, just stay home and keep trying your best xx

Really??

Well done on the weight loss! Takes you out of the worst danger

Op there's a thread going at the moment called the positive mental health Coronavirus thread join it it's lovely honestly. Just stay in as much as you can and you should be ok

Yes sadly, there was an awful thread the other day, I had to hide it x

I’m bigger than you and scared shitless, I can’t do anything than try and change things now and stay safe x I’m sure you will be fine xx

You are trying your best. Keep going. I try to think like this-

Over a year (pre covid measures) I get maybe 2 colds. I work with the public but nonetheless still only get two colds despite, pre-covid, not taking any extra hygiene measures my body is able to resist illness the vast majority of the time.
Nowadays most people are taking extra precautions and are restricting contact. So most people including you are doing everything they can and reducing the risk. The risk is small anyway. Focus on what you can control.

people have revelled in being total cunts

This is so true. On so many threads for the most ridiculous of reasons. Honestly, I was surprised not to find anything here.

Scary times, OP, but the chances of making it through are very much in your favour. Sorry for your loss

My DH was recovering from depression and anxiety and this has thrown him right back in. His mental health has completely nosedived. I can’t leave my son without me and with a dad who can’t look after himself at the moment never mind a child.
I’m bricking it. And the worse I worry the tighter my chest gets which I know logically is panic but that doesn’t help.

Statistically, you are likely to be fine x

It’s a scary time, I ended up on antidepressants and beta blockers for my anxiety as well x take care and just stay home

OP I feel for you. I got all my life insurance paperwork together. I am waiting on test results and have been convinced I have cancer for a few months. Now this has come along. I have found that mediating and reading (distraction) have helped. I wish you all the best even though I doubt you will need it.

One thing you can do is make a will nominating who will look after your son should anything happen to you. Have the discussion with the people you would like to do this. Other than that: try and stay safe

It sounds like you've done amazing with your weight loss, and eat plenty of fruit and veg and exercise. I know it's not your DHs fault, but it is hard to live with and care for someone with MH problems when you are also struggling, so please be kind to yourself. I don't think that there is anyway to magic the thoughts away, but to deal with them. Take it a day at a time, follow guidance as I am sure you are, and carry on following a healthier lifestyle.

Please, just try and stay calm op. you have your son,and your dogs, and have things to do each day. Its easy to say this I know, but you can chat on here anytime, as many people are feeling just like you are feeling right now..

Everyone in the country is frightened and worried right now. and you are not alone,if you need to talk to anyone.

It will be so easy to think about losing your mum. and your own weight etc, but try and not think about this now, these things are in your mind now, but you have to think of everyday things now, and try and be positive, about things you would like to do when all this is over..

I read that 16% of people surveyed think that if they catch coronavirus, they'll probably die. But of course, only 1% actually will. And I assume that worried 16% are people with risk factors, to think there's a reason it will take them - but even then, the majority will still survive. You're young and say you're generally fit and well - the chances of you being one of the unlucky ones is very, very small.