Total irrational paranoia.

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6th night of lying in bed unable to sleep. I fall asleep for an hour then am tossing and turning for the rest of the night. Myself and husband live in a small town with our 12 year old daughter and my elderly parents live 5 minutes away. (In their 80s and self isolating)

Despite living and working here for 8 years we have lots of acquaintances but no close friends in the area, myself and DH are both early 50s and relatively fit, but I am constantly thinking about what will happen to my DD if we both end up in hospital or worse. I know the % chances of this are negligible but I am in tears every hour, convincing myself I have symptoms - I don’t. I’m taking my temperature every 2 hours.

We both have a sister in other parts of the country but they all have families and commitments. At a push I know they would step up, but what if we are in lockdown by that stage and they can’t travel? What will happen?

Sorry for the rambling post. Just needed to get it all down and out of my head.

Things always seem worse in the middle of the night and I keep telling myself to pull together, from next week my DD will be at home with me and I can’t let her see me like this.

I feel you OP.

I think these thoughts are running through all of our minds, so you are not alone.

But try your best to not overthink it.
Lets pray they find a vaccine or a cure soon. The whole world is in dismay, they have to.

Thanks for the reply. I know there are lots of people out there thinking the same thing. I need to stay away from constantly refreshing news feeds and off certain social media.

Hey it could be worse. You could be abroad like me in total lockdown, needing a piece of paper to leave the house incase the police stop you, living with your husband who you want to divorce but are stuck together until the lockdown ends!!

I have insomnia and this is making it worse. I have to do things like sit in the garden with a come of tea, spend time with the cat, watch silly films or old re-runs of comedies or anything that is unrelated otherwise I would end up in a vortex.

Yes it's here but it doesn't have to be in my head all day long.

I wish you well.

I understand totally, I'm in Ireland so a week ahead of you approx, it's scary!! But keep doing what you are told, keep indoors, wash hands, stay away from everyone. Talk to your daughter, explain your worries but tell her what you are doing to keep you all safe. Organise food deliveries to parents and keep in contact via phone etc. It will be ok, but understand your worries, I have 4 teenagers here & two sets of grandparents close by, hard trying to keep everyone safe!

It's OK. I've had a couple of melt downs. I have so many what ifs? I'm northern reland and a lot of us has just followed the south. I'm fucking scared tbh but get up and with it. STAY THE FUCK HOME