I suffer with anxiety and am amazed at how calm I have managed to keep myself with everything going on. Well until last week ☹
I went shopping last Sunday to just do out normal shop as we needed stuff in the house. I had to go to 5 supermarkets dragging my little boy around. I think it set me off that ‘my god people are actually doing this’. I cant afford to stock pile and until I saw the state of the shops I suppose I believed it cant be as bad as the media are showing us. But it really is!
Reality hit for me when schools closed, as from today I am not allowed back to work until schools reopen and no one knows when that will be. (I even cried at that – not that I don’t take this seriously, this needs to happen, but work for me is an escape from being stuck at home, and because I have no control now over my income and keeping our heads above water I am scared. I am a single parent with no help from my sons Dad, so times are always pretty hard, but this will be on another level).
I decided to pop and get a few things yesterday after school as it’s more important for me to know I can feed my little boy. The supermarkets were worse than ever. No bread, milk, cheese, ham, yogurt, pasta, rice, eggs, cereal. No loo roll, paracetamol, cleaning stuff. I have never ever seen freezers completely empty. I walked away with a bottle of pop and a bottle of washing up liquid! We got in our car and it hit me how bad it is. Even with the limits being introduced everything is being wiped out. I am down to eating my sons left overs and the crusts off his bread. I am ok with not eating, as I would rather feed him. But this morning he asked me why I wasn’t having dinner and I said because I need to make sure I can feed you. He said no, you need to eat you can share mine, bless him.
This has to stop soon. We don’t have lots in and will run out. I also need to make sure I can drop stuff to my elderly parents as they have been unable to get anything either.
It’s all making me so sad. I get this is everyones survival instinct but so many people are being left without. ☹ Supermarket shelves are empty by 10am. If you are in work still you haven’t got a chance