Is anyone else struggling to hold it together..

[goolish]

My wedding is off. My job is gone. My fiancé is still having to work all day, so much shit is going on at his work that he's getting home so late and just collapsing into bed. I'm so miserable and so, so lonely. I'm trying to entertain my baby all day and hold it together and I just want to cry. I can't even be upset, because there are people that are dying, and that's obviously more important. I just want to scream. I want to wake up from this bad dream and have the life I had last month back.

You've got every right to be upset. I'm going through different stuff but definitely struggling. So sorry to hear about your wedding and job xx

You can be upset. You’re having an extremely difficult time, the world is going mad,and you need to let yourself get it out so you don’t explode. Cry as much as you need or want when your baby sleeps, it’s better out than in. A lot of people are feeling as you do and loads of them won’t have lost their jobs or had to cancel their weddings. Yes people are suffering and dying but you don’t help them by beating yourself up for experiencing completely normal natural emotions

I officially give you permission to stop holding it together for one night. Have a bloody good cry and tomorrow have a wee pity party, stay in your pj's do the bear minimum you need to do to keep baby fed, warm and happy. Then take a deep breath and just focus on putting one foot in front of the other to get through this. Accept all the things that are outside of your control and focus only on the things you can control. It sucks my lovely but you'll get through it because you have to.

I agree with everything the posters above have said.

It's all relative, and these are very unsettling times.
In fact, the uncertainty is the hardest element.

You're doing exactly the right thing by offloading on here: other people 'get' it and can support. Don't feel alone, lovely.