To feel today has been the worst day yet.

[Puddleduck42]

I'm already (like many) feeling abit fed up and sick of this virus and the nightmare it's causing.

Schools are staying open. Yet our child's teacher has been isolated but isn't being tested. The school are just going to clean more often. I just think when as parents do we get to step in and protect our kids? I don't want to send her tomorrow. Yet at the same time I'm sad. She is in reception. It should be a wonderful time of the year. The back of winter is here. Spring is starting. They are making Easter displays. They have baby chicks in class. They are outside more. She's really happy right now. But anytime now she will be probably home for a long time. I just feel sad. Her teacher is only covering maternity and leaves in June. I just feel so sad her first year of school could be over soon.

To top it off her swim class contacted us today to say swimming is off for the foreseeable future. All the school clubs are off now. All trips cancelled. Her first school disco is also cancelled. So why the hell are they at school when they can't do any of the nice things anymore? How is it any different? They are still mixing!

We are due to go on holiday in 2.5 weeks and I simply don't want to go anymore. It's only Norfolk. But what's the fun in going to the coast if you can't buy a bag of chips or go food shopping for the week when you get there. If you can't go in arcades and for days out. We were visiting a museum, farm etc too. Just feels we will be paying for a very quiet boring week now.

Then today I got an email from asda. All 3 cereals we eat were out of stock. I went online and all they had was one box of cornflakes. Who knows if they will turn up. My son's nappies and wipes were gone. Then 15 other things are out of stock including vegetables and orange juice. No biscuits. No chicken burgers. No pasta or pasta sauce. No squash left. No ham or chicken left. I mean who the hell has been allowed to buy so much cereal. How selfish are people being! I have seen alot of think of the elderly. I absolutely 110% agree with this. But also think of children. Children who can't have breakfast. One mum at the school has been everywhere to get her child Calpol today. Not one single shop has any. Which means kids burning up can't get their temp down.

I actually dispair. What is next week going to be like? No food. No socialising. Half arsed answers from schools. They think abit of disinfectant changes the fact a teacher has possibly already got it. Other schools are giving people a choice. Yet not ours.

I feel abit stressed tonight. I'm not sure why. Probably because I don't think ill be able to do a shop online anymore. I'll just have to hope the local coop doesn't sell out. It's awful having children and not being able to provide for them. My DD especially is fussy and won't just eat any old thing out of a tin. .
Anyone else having a bad day with it all today? Everything feels morbid and I feel annoyed that bojo wants us lot to catch this virus to protect others. I really don't fecking want it.

Teacher here. Today has been horrible.

Children are clearly spooked and behaviour has been very unsettled. We are all rattled too and quite frankly, we want to go home and be with our loved ones. Colleagues are beginning to self-isolate or go home sick. A lot of children off but we're still here.

Feels like a waiting game until we all get sick.
Morale awful. I'm not seeing my own parents for 3 months as I could already be incubating this thing & they are vulnerable. Worried for my own kids.

A lot of our children live with their extended famiIies inc elderly relatives. It feels like the horse has well & truly bolted & we're just all waiting to start coughing. We're in such close proximity to our little charges and they're just children so sticky fingers, grubby hands despite constant hand washing.

Everyone has a weird look that says 'I'm doing my best but why are we still here?'

It's on the list for social distancing, not self isolating. I'm really not bothered about work. My team is small. I feel safe enough there. Its the bus there and back that's worrying me. A woman was coughing and hacking inches away from me today with no attempt to cover her mouth. People are foul.

I have preventative. I tend to use them as relievers when the blue one doesn't work usually first thing on a morning, when I have a cold and during the night.

I'm confident I won't die. It's not that bad I'm just going to be very seriously ill for a long time and probably end up with worse asthma at the end of it. Still, it could be worse, a lot worse. I will live. Others won't.

Yesterday the hospital caring for my DF who is gravely ill with cancer said (quite rightly) that he can only have one designated visitor which of course is my devastated DM. I realise that because of this fucking virus I’ll never see my father again, even if he’s around for longer than we dare hope. My DM is on her knees but he needs company. She’s terrified they’ll ban her as an over 70 and her DH of 55 years will die alone. And then 3 days ago my BiL died suddenly and we can’t plan a funeral we just have to dispose of him. And when I finally come up for air I can’t buy any food because I just haven’t been able to plan And the shelves are bare. It’s a good job I’ve lost my appetite.

@peachgreen it's not having an end point for me too. I hate not knowing.

DD found out today she won't see 3 of her friends for 12 weeks, she's so excited to be going back to school on Friday after isolation but I doubt it will still. be open because there's no teachers left in her year. She's so sociable but an only child so will hate lock down.

She'll miss so much school, DH & I will try our best but we're clueless. I cried today because i couldn't help her with some maths.

Yup, me too. Went into work for the last time in god knows how long this morning to get my laptop. Walking back to the station, I felt unbearably sad. Hardly anyone around. Empty shops that will no doubt soon shut and many won't be able to reopen. Cancelled yet another holiday, our trip for Easter. And tonight, the prospect of the nursery closing and having both DC house bound, still having to work and having no respite whatsoever is making me feel panicky.

I wish I could get some perspective, and I know in many ways I am lucky to have what I do...but I'm scared. And so sad for the way of life I took for granted.

And yes it is affecting my DD (4). Having to explain why her dance and swim classes are cancelled, holidays not happening and trying to talk to her about the virus without freaking her out is difficult. I feel very sad for her and other children.

@YouokHun I’m sorry, it sounds like an awful time for your family

I think I can manage the staying at home - it will be boring but it’s home. What terrifies me is ending up as a severe case. I wish people understood how terrible this virus is.

@YouokHun that's heart breaking. I'm absolutely heartbroken for you. Also for your parents.

There's no need for food shortages. I think it's the government's fault for not having a clear plan in place. They havn't really spoken to the people about ideas and plans for shopping.

They could do greengrocer vans for example and go to the areas with bungalows etc for the elderly. The elderly could buy fruit and veg and teabags etc.

They could put plans in place to reassure people they will be given food parcels/ passes to go shopping. They could tell people they are limiting everything so in a fortnight all shelves will return to full health. But people are genuinely terrified now that they can't feed their children. My biggest fear is this being a hard time for a long time and our children remembering the dark days.

Not looking forward to telling my 5 year old we can't even go for walks if we self isolate or schools shut. (Or can we?) I'm actually sad we can't go to the park this summer.

I'm awake at 3.28 as much son's got a cold. Can't get back to sleep! So hard all of this.

Don’t go to Norfolk at is non essential travel which is now stopped.

Tbh I’d keep her home if you want. I am.

I found out tonight that I will possibly be made redundant soon, the best case scenario is I’ll be on minimal wages for months. I thought we’d be on reduced pay but didn’t think they would go as far as redundancies. I’m in hospitality. If the government shut us down I think I’m out of a job, and I think that will happen this week. My DH works in the same industry so it doesn’t look good.

I’m sure we can work something out eventually but life is going to look very different for a good while, I’m really depressed. So yes, the worst day yet 😢

So sorry @owlsflybynight

It's a massive problem and one you shouldn't be going through without reassurance. Do you have a mortgage? From what I can tell mortgages will be frozen for three months. I seriously hope they pay out to people like you! X

@YouokHun I’m so sorry. That must be awful for you and your family.

We FaceTimed my parents last night as I don’t think we’ll see them now for a while (both in their 70s - father had cancer last year but has recovered now).

It’s making me incredibly edgy. Smear test has been cancelled, all kids extra stuff has been cancelled. I’m very worried that we won’t be able to get the right food for our autistic coeliac child who has a very restrictive diet.

Agreed. Yesterday was awful and after a grand total of 3 hours sleep I’m off for another full day of teaching.

Yesterday was awful: trying to set up online resources for the pupils currently off but also in case we close, training for remote teaching, calming pupils and all on top of a usual day. My PPA was used yesterday for emergency cover as 4 members of staff went home sick.

I have my own children who are feeling the effects. All their clubs are cancelled (except wraparound care thankfully) and the unpredictability is unsettling then. Even my daughter (8) who is calm and mature for her age had descended into tantrums this week.

My mum is in a hearing home. I havent seen her for a week. The home call me each day as she can not communicate. I broke down yesterday when I was putting in the inter flora order for Sunday.

Food shopping is stressful. I religiously have it booked for a Wednesday evening but now I’m having to log on to websites in the early hours of the morning to secure delivery spots. I worry what will happen if we did become ill and we can’t feed ourselves.

I k is this post sounds ne, me, me and I hate myself for that. I’m not sure how much longer I can cope but once I’m in school I’ll have to put in my game face and keeping it there until 3.40 this afternoon will be a challenge.

Hope everyone else has a better day.

Nursing home, not hearing home.