Anyone else can't sleep from anxiety?

[ConfessionsOfTeenageDramaQueen]

It just feels like an inescapable nightmare.

[wejammin]

Me.

Worrying about our jobs even though we should get through this ok, and we have saved really hard for a loft conversion so if it comes to it I have a good buffer in the bank.

Worried about never seeing my mum or my gran again, both in at risk groups and not local to me.

My baby just coughed a bit. Is that it, or not? I have an awful sore throat. Is that it?

Will I manage the kids off school if and when? DC1 is autistic and hard work in general but a total nightmare to manage when things change.

[Metagoth]

We're getting married on Friday but will be cancelling. I know it's the right decision but we are going to lose thousands. I also work in social care and partner is asthmatic so all the worry with that too. Plus the worry of effects of social isolation and closure of businesses, venues and everyone else that is suffering

[apricotdreams]

Am awake. Just can't quite believe all of this is actually happening. It's bloody awful. All of it.

[JustMeAndMyTins]

Every night a panic attack. Just had to call my mum. In the middle of the night. I’m thirty fucking five. My physical problems are the true cause but the anxiety over this just launches me over the edge. I’m really struggling.

[CornflakeBreath]

I can’t sleep for stressing. There’s a suspected case at ds’s school and we are expected to send our children in tomorrow (today?) as if nothing has happened. Everyone here is acting like it’s no big deal and hey we will all get it anyway and I feel like the only one who’s thinking “I don’t want my ds to be a guinea pig for the UKs bizarre approach to this virus”.

People are acting like a deep clean means the school is safe now. Meanwhile I’m thinking all the children the ill child has been in contact with could now be carrying the virus and we are sending ours in for a massive school based chicken pox party style contamination. It feels insane.

We had to go to the GP today for an unavoidable appointment. There were people coughing in the waiting room right near a group of elderly people who looked terrified. It’s awful.

And then the catastrophising(?) side of me is remembering that bloody documentary style drama that channel 4 did a few years back about a country wide blackout and wondering if it will descend into the fictional events shown in that. People breaking into other peoples houses and holding the families at knifepoint to take their food etc. People being beaten in supermarkets for the last tin of beans. Then my logical side says stop being silly, that won’t happen. But then we already see a man in London being mugged for loo roll.

It’s the unknown future that’s distressing me most I think. for us all :(

[lettersbyowl]

@metagoth I'm so sorry. Is there anyway you can go get married on Friday still, just the two of you and then celebrate with a big party at a later date? These are extraordinary times

[MovinOnUp]

Me, Haven't slept properly in weeks.

The small things...

I'm worried we will lose our jobs.
I am worried that we will not be able to get our puppy we are supposed to be collecting from the other end of the country.

The big things...

I'm worried about my Dad, He has COPD, Heart issues and diabetes.

I'm worried that I'll die and my lovely children will be lost without me and have to go and live with their Father.

If my boyfriend survives, He will have lost me AND the stepchildren he adores.

[AquarianSquirrel]

@CornflakeBreath was just saying that exact thing to my partner earlier. Can't remember the name of the drama? But that bean scene sticks in the memory. We can only hope that the good outweighs the bad and take measures now such as social distancing.

I work in the nhs and have been encouraging others to wear masks if people are coughing etc and take this more seriously. But we were told not to discuss the virus on the ward so as not to scare patients. It is a scary time but sticking your head in the sand is scarier.

[AquarianSquirrel]

That being said, people with symptoms are being screened/tested and I think posters around the hospital are making people think about hand washing and they're limiting visitors to 2 per patient..though maybe all visitors should be banned or change it to 1?

[thatmustbenigelwiththebrie]

Me! I'm usually amazing at sleeping. My work isn't closing (university) and we've been told to still come in.

I was feeling very relaxed about it all until yesterday when there was a student in our reception area just coughing and coughing. I'm
Convinced they had it.

Does anyone know how long viruses live in the air? If I go in and can avoid touching things I think I will feel ok but not much I can do about breathing.

[EssentialStaffOrNot]

I cannot sleep.

DH is in a high risk category. Am I supposed to not go to work now? I feel like I'm losing the capacity for rational thought.

[Graciebobcat]

I can sleep, initially, but am waking up at this time and find it hard to fall back to sleep again. At least with wfh now I can have a little nap in the afternoon if required.

I've ordered some Nytolly stuff to help temporarily, it often just breaks the cycle (I have had this before and generally don't sleep too badly these days but the current situation is causing general anxiety).

[Casino218]

Yep I'm pretty anxious about not getting out of Morocco today. Country has closed its borders and we are in semi isolation in hotel as that's the government's rule.

[RosieMapleLeaf]

Can I join please?

I'm a worrier anyway but at the moment ... ugh. So many things I don't have enough time for all the worrying!!

1. Schools closed. Four teenagers at home. They want to go out and see their friends and I have to keep saying no.

1. No idea what will happen with this school year. Schools currently closed for three weeks but I expect it to go longer. Our teachers are in "work to rule" which apparently means they won't organize lessons online. There's already been many missed days due to strikes (I'm in Ontario Canada). My kids might lose this semester.

1. I live in a tourist town. The local resort shut its doors on Sunday. There are no tourists. Many businesses are shutting down in town. Restaurants are take out only. So many people being laid off.

1. Last Thursday DH had three jobs. Today he barely has one - severely reduced hours.

1. I have MS, I take immunomodulators. I'm obese. I'm fucking terrified about what this virus will do to me if/when I get it. And I'm furious with myself for not dealing with the weight and now it might be too fucking late.

1. My town is a nice retirement destination with a small local hospital. When the virus gets here the hospital will be overwhelmed.. And if it comes to picking who survives I don't think I'll be a good candidate.

1. I'm scared I will die and leave my children with their feckless father.

1. The news is everywhere and I can't look away even though it's making everything worse.

1. I have a job and haven't really been able to focus for the past 10 days or so. I wish I could get absorbed in it to at least distract from this for a while. Work is not really getting done.

10. In-laws are elderly and in the UK. DH couldn't go even if he wanted to now. My parents are a three hour drive away. I hope they all make it through this.

Sorry for the people that are in a worse position than me, I can't even imagine. :(

Thank you for letting me get all that out.

[30not13]

Awake here 🙋‍♀️

Went to bed about half ten. Started coughing at 11ish. Still coughing at 430am. Bollocks. Dreading phoning in to work as I'm scared they will think I'm not telling truth. Scared as I have a young child. Scared of having no/little income. Scared that OH will not take this seriously and si too. Scared if it is that I've infected all the wee ones in my workplace as well as colleagues. Scared of the impact for them.

Just scared !

[fannyanney]

Me. Child has had a very unsettled night with a temp. We were with my mother today. I'm terrified.

[nicky2512]

Me too. So anxious.
Dd has prolonged chest infection. A level year but she will not be going to school. The rest of us need to go out though.
Scared of her getting it.
Can’t stop my dad going out. He has heart failure but just doesn’t get the seriousness.
Want school to close but don’t want them to at same time as don’t know what we’d do for money if dh couldn’t work.
It just all feels so much worse through the night.

[PurpleGhost]

Yes, trouble sleeping here. This is like a nightmare you can't wake up from and I'm almost shaking with anxiety.
Me and my husband are both in high risk groups and I'm terrified if we both get it that there's going to be no one to look after our 3 kids.
We live an hour and a half from family so we have no help. And they're all in the high risk groups anyway. This could wipe out my whole family.

[nicky2512]

It just feels surreal.

[Bertiemcgertie]

I've had a terrible night. I'm extremely anxious.

Need to go to work today to collect a laptop and say goodbye to my lovely team, i'm incredibly lucky to love my job, and I'm going to miss their company. It won't be the same on the phone or Skype.

My kids are still in school, but will probably pull our my youngest as he has underlying health issues.

It's all such an awful nightmare and I think it's scary that we don't know the way out apart from hoping that seasons changing may help or a vaccine but that's months away.

[Wejustdontknow]

I have had a very sleepless night, now up for work... in a supermarket so definitely won’t be working from home and already had a message saying it has been madness there all night so dreading today. Want to keep my kids off school but can’t put plans in place until Monday and even then me and dp are going to have to take major cuts to hours to facilitate one of us being at home. In laws are also still on holiday in a Spanish island and don’t seem to grasp how serious this is

[VashtaNerada]

I’m a teacher in central London. Lots of children and staff off with a cough and fever but of course can’t get tested so school is still open. The stress of not knowing whether we will close or not is incredible. I don’t know whether I’m planning lessons next week or worksheets to take home, everything feels like it’s on standstill and yet we’re all meant to be carrying on as normal. This is horrible.

[spydie]

Terrible night here. Very worried for my dad who has 3 underlying health conditions at 65, plus a lot of other people we know and love. Worried about DH's job, he's doing a terms supply until Easter and starts a perm job after Easter. Still no paperwork through (they are taking absolutely ages) and if the schools close he won't get paid before Easter and what if they pull his job offer.

Oh, and we had a big row last night about this, he seems to think I'm crazy for worrying and can't see why he'd need to self isolate if one of us got ill... and thinks it's acceptable for his DM to use the tube and train to come and visit us to help with childcare to which I've put my foot down. Because she's 65 and no underlying health issues she is fine apparently. But why would anyone put themselves at risk like that and not to mention the risk of spreading it to more vulnerable ppl.

[PostNotInHaste]

I have woken up and looked at the news and it is like we are in bloody disaster movie. It’s a hell of a lot to comprehend but I think I get it now and I never thought I would say this but I feel sorry for Boris and it explains why he looks as if he has been shitting himself.

My view as of this morning is that it is OK to feel scared and that actually it wouldn’t be rational not to in this position. The news is saying ‘we are in it for the longhaul’ . It’s clear life has just changed profoundly for everyone to the extent it’s too much to take in right now and we are all going to have to start a psychological process of coming to terms with it. Our current feelings show we have started this so we are ahead of the game with this.

I’m not able to think very clearly yet but I think a new daily routine is probably the key. I had thought DH’s job would ride that but now i’m not sure but I’m not going to worry right now . We are creative and we will come through this as a society. Staying in is going to be hard . I know it sounds like I am an old hippy but I think trying to stay connected to nature as best we can is going to very important. I can hear the birds singing now, it shows each day the sun comes up and life goes on.

For today when you feel anxious look outside and see what you can see. Wherever you live there will be something to see, take a moment to look. The one thing we have on our side is the season, it’s just the start of the growing season which I think will turn out when we look back at it to be a positive thing . That’s for later though, for now we need to adjust to our new normal, that’s scary but we can do this.

[rainbowscalling]

I have been up for 2 hours with DD feeling ill. Called 111 and have been told that she just has a cold and nothing more so no need to worry.

I work in London. We have had no indication from work that we can switch to working from home, despite yesterday's announcement from PM.

Yesterday I spent my whole day feeling on the edge of a breakdown. All everyone did was talk about the situation. My parents are in Spain on holiday at the moment and I'm terrified they won't get home and something will happen.

There just feels like the is no solution or end in sight.