I've been scared because I have corona symptoms and have been self isolating. However, I also needed a break for my mental and physical health generally. Being at home knowing there's nothing I can do has been strangely relaxing (if you take away my worry about my breathing!). Knowing that I just have to stay here and can't do all the things I "need" to do has taken quite a load of my mind.
I'm self employed. I know I'll lose business. I don't have much money. I'm angry with the government. I'm so worried for some of my friends who aren't in full health. My parents are elderly and I'm worried for them.
When I think about the future, it's so uncertain, everything is changing. Who knows what tomorrow will bring, let alone next week or next month.
Yet, here at home,at the moment I feel safe and calm.
After self isolation I'm choosing to rest and recuperate for another two weeks. Then I shall help others however I can without putting myself at risk.
So, OP, I appreciate how you feel. It's probably quite important that there are a number of us at home right now, resting and regenerating away from the usual hubbub of our lives. We'll be needed when others fall ill or are isolated.