I really that this is a completely self absorbed post (and also pretty pointless because no one can do anything about it.)
My DH has an incurable illness and although he isn't as strong as he was - he is still able to do things with us as a family. This may be the last year that is the case though and so we had lots of things planned. I hate the phrase 'making memories' but I guess that what it was really.
Except we can't do any of it now. And I've got this awful feeling of time running out