I’m struggling a bit. I’ve had my anxiety under control for years buts it’s flaring a bit now. The dc are off school here in Ireland and that has helped me greatly.
It doesn’t help that it’s all anyone talks about at the moment. I’m not seeing the gps but phoning for chats as they’re lonely and it’s the main topic of conversation.
I find it’s easier when I’m being proactive but I’m running out of things to clean, organise and buy. I’ve sorted out all the paperwork that’s been sitting around for the last ten years. But I’m basically sorting out my affairs, or death cleaning, which isn’t exactly cheerful.
I’m finding it hard to find the right balance between preparedness and anxiety. And it’s fine for people to say “it’ll be fine” but myself and dh are higher risk, 3 out of 4 grandparents are very high risk, and I wouldn’t rate the chances of sil and bil either. Financially we could be badly affected too. Not everyone is as vulnerable but I’m worried for my dc - not catching it, but what might happen to them if I die.
Today I’m going to seek out some nice podcasts, kindle and audio books, and update my Netflix list so I can distract and escape for a while. I’m not sure how much it will help as I find myself tuning out and the doom and gloom in my head taking over.
Gardening might be a good shout.