why do I do this to myself

[asteri]

ok so this month I decided to be patient and not to test until AF was late, well, curiosity got the better of me. AF is due on the 6th, just two days away and so I tested with FMU this morning using a clear and simple test (cheapy bodycare one) and it was BFN, so now I feel gutted before the witch has even arrived.
boo!

Hey you - couldn't just read and not post anything! I feel your pain! But as they say - you aint out until AF shows so don't feel too negative just yet. I don't know what possesses us to behave this way when TTC - Im sure we are all sane women who would never normally behave this way - but the POAS addiction is crazy! You are not alone.

Chin up and dont lose hope yet

thanks lankylegs its nice to know im not alone......
I have now even tried reasoning with myself that maybe 25miu tests arent sensitive for early testing instead of just thinking ah well, will have to wait and see....

I have seen on these posts and others that some of the really sensitive ones (10miu) dont even work for people until quite late on after AF is actually due so dont beat yourself up about it. And on others they work really early. Go figure right? Everyone is different which makes it even bloody worse. Hate the waiting game but hang on in there....

Just to echo lankylegs really - I feel your pain. How is it that I had the willpower to:

• give up smoking
• lose the 2 stone i gained when I gave up smoking
• not send those crazy texts that seemed a good idea after i had had a few drinks to my ex-boyfriend (talking 10 yrs ago hear but still makes the point)
• not exchange tit for tat emails with my incredibly irritating ex-h and remain serene

But can I resist poas 4 days before i am due - no, neither can I resist it the next day or the next or the next despite them all being -ve. I would actually like to check in to a convent or something this month for the 2WW for my own safety!

oiseau congrats on the smoking and the weight thing and the texts and emails, you belong in a convent, you must be a saint lol! and thanks again lankylegs, maybe I should just go check myself into an asylum now..... "hi my name is Asteri, and I am addicted to peeing on sticks"

Very amusing oiseau - its amazing what us girls can do when we put our mind to it!

Asteri - where are you checking yourself into... I think I feel obliged to join. Infact - isn't this just the greatest way to make your millions? Rehab for POAS'ers. I think this could be a provision of the NHS surely? Would save a lot of women driving themselves to the brink of insanity.... there's a saving if I ever did hear of one.

I have to find new places to hide all my pee sticks as it thoroughly annoys DH esp when he realised how much these things costs and it could have amounted to a chi-chi mini-break in some glam Italian location. Instead it sits on some landfill site for plastic pee sticks that have batteries in them (aka wretched digi's).

I am only on CD12 but every days feels a lifetime in TTC world. Although now in that phase where you cant even have a glass of wine to console the fact that AF has arrived!

Anyhooo - keep us posted on your POAS dilemma for this month - hope its a BFP for you...

will do lankylegs you too.
(considering taking my POAS therapy idea on Dragons Den........)

I want to come to the 2WW hideout too - what is it with the passing of time slowing to a ludicrous tick pause tock.

I just don't understand it - not TTC weeks wizz by without me noticing. The minute I decided finally yes I would like another baby every day feels like a year. OMG used to be so proud of my sanity and now it is slipping away before my very eyes.