It's surprisingly disturbing to read that both of you feel strongly that my treatment so far has been awful. It sort of validates how I'm feeling which makes it a bit more worrying.
I hope I haven't come to my conclusion too late to do something about it.
London - I've been following your fabulous progress from afar; although your girls must be such hard work, you must be very, very pleased you have them (they're gorgeous . Your bed rest did sound as dull as ditchwater though .
Thank you for linking to that site - I hadn't found it before and am trawling through it to dig out as much information as possible. There's a lot there.
Attila - I don't know why they haven't tested my DH. We've both asked the question, and each time they've said that because we've had 3 chem pgs in the last 18 months, it's not necessary. We will ensure it's done before we see Mr Dooley.
I haven't been given Metformin, only Clomid. And the consultant said when she gave it to me that she thought it might not work because of my BMI but that in view of my age, I might as well give it a try. The Clomid is on a repeat prescription for 12 months and I have to go back to the consult 6 months into treatment.
It does deeply worry me that I have no idea what's going on inside me. I do know it bloody hurts though. And the fibroid is painful and ensures I have v heavy periods - I am going through 2 whopper pads and the most absorbent tampons I can find in an hour. Every month. It's very debilitating.
She did say that removing the fibroid would be dangerous - it may result in an emergency hysterectomy because of it's position. She also said it would leave massive scarring which would be likely to affect my fertility. It seemed like a no win situation to be honest.
It's astonishing how much clarity I am gaining from writing all this down. It is very quickly focusing my mind