I know it is COMPLETELY my own fault but feeling quite fragile so please don't tell me off (even though I deserve to have my head banged against a wall).
I started testing today at 10DPO (even though I haven't even had the progesterone test result to confirm ov! Just relying on my chart). Got 3 x very faint +ve on 3 different tests (IC, FR, Superdrug) at 3 times of day - the first 2 I thought maybe I was imagining but the Superdrug one was a clear (although faint) line at arms length in normal indoor lighting - it came up at 4 mins instead of the 3 mins test time but well before the 10 minute 'discard' time.
The trouble is I am spotting and really terrified. Last pg ended in mc (at 10wks) last Jan. Has been a struggle to even ovulate since then as my PCOS kicked in. I had a short red bleed on Sat (7DPO) which I assume was implantation. Was spotting a tiny bit of pink and light red already before that and also earlier in my cycle. The nurse I who did my recent pap smear said I have a slight cervical erosion which causes spotting. The spotting is very light and scant but this evening I had a few blobs of quite heavily blood stained CM which scared me.
I know there is absolutely NOTHING I can do except wait and see what happens. Not sure why I'm writing this except that I need to get it out - can't tell DH cause he will be SO disapproving about me testing at 10DPO and fretting like a mad woman, can't tell my mum/sister/bestfriend cause would feel so guilty that they knew before DH.
And I'm an idiot, having spent all day weeing on sticks and not doing ANY work! aarrrgggghhh!