Emmsy's weebles, from TTC to new arrivals, it's all going on here.

[VJay]

Ok, here we are, a new thread to see us into the next decade, and to celebrate more BFP's, growing bumps and new arrivals, and to enjoys those already here

Happy New Year from me too

Will be back soon to post properly and catch up - just wanted to mention that I am watching Love Actually and thinking of you all

Day 9 of a 2WW, and trying very hard not to obsess, so am keeping my distance from MNet

Happy New Year to you all. Sorry for the short message but I'm having a hard time right now. We went to a party in our village & totally unexpectedly when the bells went I started crying & haven't really managed to stop since much to my embarrassment. I really did not expect that to happen & it is so not like me.

Like everyone has already said, I cannot stress how much you all mean to me. You are a special bunch of ladies & I hope we all remain friends for a very long time. xxx

Happy New Year all! (again )

MLS after the year you've had tears are only natural. I know I was upset at midnight too thinking about saying goodbye to the year that should have contained the baby I never had. Tears can be good though and I hope those are the last you shed for a while. Always here for you through happy, sad, bad and mad moments in 2010 and beyond. Big hug x x

Jools Can I be a little bit excited?

Iggy here's my hand for Monday.

Loving the Ralph comments. I too read that book several times It was a library copy and kept falling open at a particular part! Our school librarian refuses to stock it because it's classed as Junior fiction - spoilsport.

Hope all our Emmsy graduates slept well into 2010 and continue to fill their mummys' hearts with love, pride and wonder

We went to my brother's and my DD lasted until 11pm. She was up at 6 wanting to go skating but was encouraged back to bed til after 8. I've been having Away in a Manger on a loop ever since!

Have a fab day all.

Big waves to the lovely neeko

mls it's so natural you'd be emotional at the end of a year like the one you've had honey also it must be nearly time for af (or something nicer ). This year will be the start of wonderful times for you xxx

fingers tightly crossed for u too jools

thinking of you mermaid. Hope you are okay lovely xxxx

Lots of love and a very happy new year to all you lovely ladies

Just a quick Happy new year to you all! Big hug to mls .... Thanks for all the lovely tx flyin round last night! We had our chinese at our lil restaurant then did see midnight in watching Jools Holland Ill post to all on mon, lyin in bed with dh watching my bil in muppet treasure island! He is the bald baddie pirate! X

Happy New Year girls may this year bring us lots of love and luck and happiness, cherished little ones and new bfps

Happy New Year

Hello again

I hope everyone had a good night

I fell asleep on the sofa just before midnight but managed to wake up just as Big Ben was chiming

Special new year wishes for MM on her babymoon and a big hug for MLS - the pressure to be happy on NYE often brings out conflicting emotions - better out than in ..

Thanks for my texts Some of them came after I'd gone to bed, so have only just seen them

I echo what everyone else says about this thread - if I couldn't have talked about how i was feeling with people who understand, I think I'd have gone loopy !

Am a bit about the 2WW - have imagined too many symptoms before and been disappointed so am just hiding my head in a bucket of sand till Wed / Thurs next week. No early testing - that is my New Years Resolution, although DP asked me last night if I was pregnant

Just watching one of my favourite films (always makes me cry) - Mr Tom - with the Inspector Morse guy in it.

Apologies in advance for the me post, am feeling terribly weeblesome & thought Id take the opportunity to let it out whilst DH cooks dinner & Dr Who & Eastenders is recorded on sky+..

Im just full of January new year anxiety really, woke up thinking 1st Jan last year we got BFP no4, found out we lost it on 30th Jan & had erpc next day.. However I think my main overwhelming anxiety & comes from the fact its 4yrs since my dad died on 10th, so new year now always comes tinged with wierdness as it was out the blue & unexpected, so have been lamenting my own mortality & all those close which causes untold anxiety, am particuarly worried about my mum, who now has our flu (which Im now worried may have actually been swine flu, we have never been so ill)

I just want January over with already tbh! On the 23rd (nephews birthday) our 3rd baby would of been 1, and on my dads anniversary 2yrs ago we got BFP no2. Its all a bit wierd tbh, a quadruple whammy of horrid dates, sept is the same for me. Prob also not helped that I have to go back to work on the 11th which Im dreading.. Of course all this is underlined by my constant anxiety that this little baby inside of me is going to be alright..

Sorry folks, im just a big emotional hormonal wobbly weebling mess right now, needed to get it all out, sorry for the self indludgent me post, think I feel better for getting it straight in my head & in writing...

Lotsa love x x x x x

Oh 4ever, with a month like that ahead, who wouldn't be feeling a bit wobbly!

I suppose the only wany to deal with it is in bite sized chunks - your dad's anniversary first, follwed by the LO anniversarys. Like every month it will pass and when it does, you'll be about 23 weeks and carrying a viable baby!

Work will be fine - you'll be spending most of your time talking baby anyway for a few weeks and when that has settled down, you'll be back into work. And of course, when you get back to work, you will have got past your dads anniversary and your mum will be all better.

Anyway, enough of littlebellsmum the mystic ( thats barbies job!). My dd told our best friends this morning and they were all stunned - happy but stunned!! My bf kept saying but you were drinking last night and I had to point out that or course I wasn't but no one noticed!!

Cupcake Yes, I think my scan is a day before yours on the 7th. Which seems a bit unfair as you are due first!

MLS Hope the morning sees you feeling better. Again 2009 was a **ty year for you and so, no wonder you shed a few tears. However 2010 will be much better..

Now need to go - mystic LBM is appearing again!!

mls hope you are feeling a bit better today. Hang in there honey. It's been a rough year but here's to a nice shiny bfp for you, Jools, moon and all the smallpanters xxx

jools excellent new years resolution. lol at your dp asking if you were preggers They can be quite perceptive sometimes but definitely keep that head in the sand. But get your list of reasons ready for why it doesn't matter if it's not this month just to make sure that you get that good news

moon engaged lady I'm smiling seeing your smiley faces in your posts. It's great to hear you sounding happier xxx

4ever big hugs honey. What a month of memories, it is only natural that you would be weebling. I think probably that the reality of going back to work is stressing you out more than you even realise. Just say to yourself that you will try it out for one day and if it is still stressing you out when you are there then the doctor /consultant will just have to sign you off. Nothing is more important than yours and baby 4ever's health Everything will be alright honey. You will be getting lots of kicks soon to remind you of how strong your lovely baby is

lbmthemystic good subterfuge last night with the drinking!! I'd never get away with that, my friends always watched me like a hawk Looks like we have a week of scans ahead. I think iggy is on Monday, and then yourself and cupcake later in the week.

mermaid as always I'm thinking of you and hoping that you and dh and ds are finding a way through this sad time xxx

Big waves to VJ also

Oh LBM, Curly and Neeko thanks so much for your lovely words, I fear the horrormones really got the better of me... Ive been very emotional & teary, specially recieving Neeko & Curlys* tx last night, im wondering if its also where Im weaning myself off the cyclogest

You are all right, obviously I miss my dad every day, but my mum having this fluey thing has paniced me as thats what my dad was suffering with but he ended up having heart failure, it was all so sudden, after a very happy christmas, Im always full of angst & anxiety at this time of year now cos of it, but we will survive & stay strong cos Iv become quite a master at it!

Curly I do think the reality of going back to work has been worrying me more than I realise, last day of work was sept 24th! Im going back to a new job (had to give up the job I did & loved for 13yrs so didnt have to commute) a new team, desk, manager & database, its a little daunting to say the least! Ill cope though, I think I worked out my last day should be 7th May, & will work as many hols as poss (+ the odd sicky!) in between..

LBM you are right too, the whole principle of getting through this has been giving myself milestones, so once Im back at work, my dads anniversary will have passed, my angel babies are always with me anyway, my mum will be better, and then my 20 wk scan is on the 26th (at nearly 22wks!) and then Iv reached several more mental milestones.. I must say thanks again to Vjay for the doppler which has also kept me semi sane! x

Anyway, just wanted to say thank you so so so much for the support, Im a bit at the induldgence of my anxieties & insecurities, let this year be one of hope & good fortune for us all... Dh is back at work on monday so then I have all week to give each of you the tlc and time you all so deserve...

Big hug to Mermaid whos been constantly in my thoughts, wishful babydust for MLS Jools Bakingqueen and Moon, tummy pats for the growing bumps, hand holds for Iggys first scan on the 4th, and for LBM and Cupcakes 20 wk scans this week time has flown! Our next round of gradutates is fast approaching! Im so happy for you all - Curly, Barbie, Neeko, Gracie, Mrskate.. Lastly but not at all leastly, a fabulous new year & lifetime of health & happiness to our 7 graduates and yummy mummys MM, Blue, Annie, Buddha, Vjay, Sabs & Lion* xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Oh Monkey a ton of babydust for you too! Keep forgetting you are back! xx

Good morning 4Ever - I'm glad you seem a bit less weebly today and those who were on last night were able to help I think all I'd have said is to take every day as a new day and focus on getting through that - don't look ahead at upcoming dates but just focus on them when you get there.

I'm in awe of your posting ability - you remembered all those names in one post - respect !! I always forget someone

My turn to wobble and weeble - went to the gym this morning for the first time in a fortnight. My cold came back last night - horrendous cough - but I decided to go anyway and see if it made me feel better. It was hard and I had to take it really slowly.

Now home, ridiculously exhausted and have some all too familiar stomach cramps - am wondering if this is implantation, or I've dislodged a burrowing bean, or if I'm just imagining things

I've had thrush and my hair has stopped coming out in the shower / when I brush it - both sure early signs for me.

right, where is that bucket of sand ....

4ever don't apologise for your posts that's what we are all here for, to listen and support , January is quite a month for you but we are here to get you through it. That doppler helped keep me sane too, so so glad it is helping you too

jools keep you head in the sand, it would send you some but it's covered in snow at the moment, I could send you some snow, it's cold but numbing

mls hope you are feeling better today.

blue and mm hope you are all cosied up with your wee ones

Big waves to everyone

Happy New Year girls . Didn't manage to get on yesterday, but you were all in my thoughts...

4ever - January is a shit month, end of. Going back to work will seem v. hard but once you get past the first few days I'm sure it will help time move quicker as you will be busy and blooming and avoiding people wantng to pat your bump. Its just so that your bad dates fall together in Sept/Jan but this will be the last year that they will feel so acute as you will have your lo in June and no matter how maudlin you feel next Sept/Jan you can look down at your lo and see how far you've come. Your Dad will be so chuffed looking down on you and seeing how you're coping with this pg and he will be in the delivery room with you too. He will be handing out the ciggars up there in heaven .

Vjay - its bloody snowing AGAIN here!! Yes its pretty, and festive but enough already. I want to take Benjamin out for his first walk round our woods but its too dangerous in the ice..

MLS - really hope your big cry was cathartic. Its been one awful year for you but its gone now. New year new plans and hopes. Your strength and determination through all that life has thrown at you this year have been humbling to read, I just hope a BFP and sticky bean are just round the corner xx

Jools - keep that head in the sand and good resolution not to test early. You are so in tune with your cycle, a BFP must be en route soon

Moon apologies I forgot to say huge congratulations on getting engaged . What a lovely, lovely way to finish the year and hope its the first of many happy announcments coming from you .

Baby Ben is chubbing up nicely. Really loving his (.)(.) milk . I'm absolutely knackered but happyily so .

Big hugs to all my other cyber mummies and neices/nephews and yummy mummies to be, let this year see our friendships and brood grow and grow.

2010 - lets ROCK! xx

Afternoon lovelies and a slightly belated happy new year I was loving all the texts going round too and want to echo that you've all been an amazing support this year. It's so weird to think this time last year dh and I were all happy and excited about trying for a baby and would find out in just a couple of weeks I was pregnant... how much has changed in a year.
We spent yesterday walking at Ogmore beach with some friends and it was so beautiful.. really hoping this year will be magical forll of us.

Blue lovely to hear from you and hope Benjamin gets his walk soon! It's snowy and icy in Wales too; I'm really quite bored of it!

4ever sorry to ar about the big wobble understandable of course. For some reason the last few months I've been terrified by the idea of everyone's mortality too - particularly scared about losing my dh or any family and I haven't even lost a parent like you have so can't imagine what you must be feeling work is bound to be super daunting too but like blue says, it will start to fly by soon enough once you get back into the swing of it.

LBM I'll forgive you for having your scan before me we actually requested a Friday cos it's my day off so I should've been having it during the week really... Getting a teensy bit nervous in case they find anything untoward. We decided against the Downs screening earlier on so who knows what could be going on with little one.. fingers crossed. Been feeling a lot more movement the last couple of days and sure it won't be long before dh can feel it too

Moon so sorry about af coming but loving the positive list it's especially nice you get to enjo just being engaged without all the weebling of early pregnancy his year is the one for you!

Iggy and mermaid both a bit quiet... which is understandable of course. Thinking of you both and sending hair strokes.

Curly I'm not sure I want the time fly dh and I need to move house within the next couple of months and all just a bit daunting so I'd rather like it if time slowed down!!
Lovely that you got pressies for curlygirl and you're not counting your chickens, just being hopeful

gracie if you're there...how exciting that you're next!! I remember your bfp so clearly I don't know where the time's gone!!

neeko glad you've been enjoying quality time with dh and dd enjoy the last couple of days!

baking hope the party was fab...massively crossed fingers for you, MLS and jools and all the small panters. Moon of course we'll all be sticking around to 'bring up the rear' as you called it wouldn't miss it for the world. I don't like my ante-natal thread , would much rather hang out with you ladies

Right...off to the shops...

Happy New Year everyone! Let's hope 2010 is a good 'un!

Ah 4ever so sorry to hear that January is so stacked full of bad dates for you I'm very sorry to hear about your dad, that must've been just awful. I really hope your mum feels better soon - it's such a worry when they're ill As you say you have become a master at staying strong - just concentrate on your little bean, and before you know it we'll be into February. The rest of the year has so many wonderful things to look forward to...

MLS Reading your post on NYE made me want to cry with you and give you a tight squeeze. I felt just like that last year. I truly hope this year is a brighter one for you x

Jools I have my fingers tightly crossed for you! Keeping your head in the sand (or snow) is a good option I reckon!

Blue Lovely to hear little Ben is filling out - it's amazing how quickly that happens! Hope your (.)(.)'s are holding up okay None of that toecurling left I hope...
DS did have a lovely Christmas thanks - I hope yours did too?

Right, must go but big waves to everybody else and hope you all have lovely weekends xxx

Hello ladies

I was so excited on Monday to have my bfp, was going to wait a few days, possibly New Years Eve to tell you all but as the lines on my daily hpt's began to fade so did my hope.

The first Response I did this morning was very faint compared to the one I did mid-week. Looks like I'm having another cp. I stopped the progesterone a couple of night ago, I'm just waiting for the bleeding to start now.

Three mc's & two cp's in one year.

MLS How much more do you have to go through? I can't believe this is happening again. Am so so sorry xxx

So, so sorry MLS (

Life is just too cruel sometimes

Aw god mls this is so bloody cruel & unfair... I really hope u can see ur consultant asap & get some more tests maybe?

Ironically I had a letter from my consultant on Wednesday morning to say my blood results were normal.

Jools, blue, vjay, cupcake & monkey just have to say ur kind words made me cry, so thank you... Now the tears are for poor mls & the mental turmoil you must be in... X