The sight of a newborn feeling so emotional

[lostitoday]

A family member has just had a little boy and I am distraught with emotion.
Alot of you are probably aware of my situation from previous posts I have been ttc for over 2 years and its looking useless for me with not much chance.
The sight of this persons baby seems to have dug up a terrible sadness and all new feelings.
I went to see the baby and held him and could have loved him like my own.
I am now wondering if I would have been better keeping away as now I feel so much more worse and depressed.
At the moment I can,t imagine how my life can go on without having my own precious little bundle to take care of.
When will this hurt ever pass.
I have a counselling appointment today at 3.00pm which is supposed to be helping me but I am dreading it I just know that I will end up crying and even find it difficult to share this with the counsellor.
I know that I am lucky in having an 8 year old boy and I do love him to bits but I so long for a baby again.
I am sorry to anyone on here who doesn,t have any dc's at all I know I should be grateful but still I am struggling terribly with this.
Am I the only one where seeing a newborn has done this to them.

oh I know how you fel

I went to see my best friend's newborn the other day and surprisingly it didn't make me sad as we are very close and I feel like I can say anything to her about my own situation. I do know how you must be feeling though as I have found it hard to cope with other people's babies in the past.

How close are you to the parents of the baby? Could you talk openly to them about how you feel or would it be quite easy to not be involved?

I am so sorry you are feeling like this and really do empathise.

About 2 and a half years ago I found this link on MN flower essences I was in a horrible place mentally and emotionally about my failure to conceive, my best friend had just told me she was pg after one month of TTC and I was ready to try anything (and I did!) anyway I started taking a few drops of She Oak and White Chestnut every morning and I swear it made so much difference to how I felt. I was a lot less negative and upset/jealous/envious - all things I had hated myself for being so in turn had also felt guilty iykwim? I don't know if these def did the trick but I can def say that when I started usig them my spirits did lift and I seemed able to deal much better with my emotions.

I am a bit of an alternative therapies gal so not averse to trying new approaches and I they have often really helped - and certainly never harmed me.

Just a suggestion that might be worth a try.

HTH

Hi

I hope your ok can't imagine how you must be feeling try not to feel so down. I haven't read any of your other threads so can't say much. But do stay positive. I also have a 10 year old DS and feel i'm ready to have another now so i'm TTC aswell.

But to be honest this will be my first month TTC. Don't know how it will go for me either.