Bobbins - glad to see your keyboard is now paying attention - or were you posting at work (ssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!)
I am still thinking about you on a regular basis, and it saddens me to read your post, but does not surprise me. The yearning, longing, the sheer intensity of broodiness for one who has lost a baby so early on in his life... well - I can imagine, I really can.
So very glad to hear your new relationship is good, and you have found love again. Concentrate on this for now, and trust that your time will come again, but let him know (without pressure) how important having another baby in your life is. He must understand this, and I'm sure he does - but knowing your past probably makes him scared that a new baby would take you away from him. He's probably not wrong either.
If you kids are in love, things should work out. I can't wait to read the "I'm Pregnant!" thread you post. It will happen, but take it gently.
Are you still talking to bereavement councillors?
Once again - feel mightily inadequate to respond in the best way - other than I and many others are still routing for you...
I'm sure there's a warm spot in the yurt being saved for you. I haven't ventured in there yet - but keep peering in through a small gap in the yak skin covering... Come in with me and see if we can mooch some of the dubious substances going around, and see if Brad is free now