This sounds so greedy.

[bubble99]

I've got a beautiful little nine week old boy asleep in our bedroom but there should have been two. His twin brother Bo died during a fatally botched labour and I can't help but feel something is missing.
Missing for me, because my son was a perfect full term baby who I felt kicking up until the anaesthetic for the emergency CS and who I held when there was no life left in him. And for his brother who spent nine months face to face with his brother and ended up without him.
I know and understand all of the advice about waiting to conceive afer a CS and no one can ever replace Bo. But... I need to have another baby. I know that many of you are TTC number one and two and here's me desperate for number four. I'm already checking my CM. I hope it happens soon.

No greedy at all bubble - and perfectly understandable. I can even begin to imagine what you've gone through this last 9 weeks. But you need to do what's right for YOU (and your DH of course ) not what other people may or may not perceive as being 'right'.

Good luck

Oh BIG HUGS Bubble, I can't even begin to imagine what you are feeling, but you are in my thoughts and I hope things start going your way soon.

bubble, i am so sorry for your loss

Bubble, to know how you feel and not be numb is so positive. I haven't had an experience like this and I cannot imagine the pain for you all. As said below, the right thing is what is right for you and your family as we are all so individual. I wish you luck and I have to say congratulations that you have a beautiful son.

wishing you all the best and hope things happen soon for you.

bubble99, no this doesnt sound greedy at all, this sounds like a lovely woman who had a terrible tragedy who yearns for another child

i dont think it matters how many children you have, when a woman feels she wants another child, that yearning will never go away just like that.

i hope you go on to have another baby real soon,
and i wish you best of luck ttc

love
bubbly
xx