I want a baby!

[OracleInaCoracle]

i love my job, im good at it and dh and i seem to have finally put all our bad stuff behind us. thought i'd reconciled myself to not having anymore. was convinced that i was ok about ds being an only child. but im really not. its a year since my last mc and apart from 1 cp (which i dont really count) i havent come close.

how can i put away that need?

how can i tell ds that he wont be getting a baby for christmas because mummy has some problems?

when will it get easier?

I dont think that you can just "put away the need", its not the kind of thing that you can just "put away" is it because its always there on your mind, always.

Its such a strong feeling.

Dont know what to say to you, im in the same boat so i can feel how you are feeling,i know what you are saying yet i have no advice, probably because i dont know what to do about it myself..for myself iyswim.

its tough isnt it? and i feel under so much pressure to just shrug my shoulders and say "we'll see" when people ask me if we want more. buti feel the need to rant and scream and cry about it. i hate the fact that im so bitter about ftc and other peoples fertiity. i was never like this!