I feel encouraged after visit to fertility clinic but am scared I am heading for heartbreak

[lostittoday]

Hi
I have been ttc for 14 months and it has been a terrible time.
After missed periods and a high fsh diagnosis I was put under investigation for either early menopause or premature ovarian failure.
The fertility clinic put me on a months supply of hrt to try and spur my ovaries into action this does appear to have worked as I have now had two normal cycles a day 21 test also showed that I had ovulated.
I am so pleased and after fearing that I was not going to have any more dc's I have fresh hope.
The fertility clinic say I am not out of eggs yet and I am still in with a chance naturally but there is no telling how long my eggs will last.
As well as having renewed hope I am also worried to death that I am still close to menopause and things will not happen before its too late for me I am 38 so I do know that time is not on my side.
The fertility clinic said that if my cycle stops again then I can take another months supply of hrt to see if that gets things working again.
I do find this stressful and I am worried that ultimately it will still end in tears.
I feel like such a loon with my way of thinking but what if I only have a few eggs remaining sorry I know I sound crazy. but I can,t bear it if things don,t happen.

Hi

I'm not sure what to say to you. TTC is absolutely heartbreaking when it doesn't work, but then coming to a point where one feels able to give up TTC is difficult too.

Of course you are worried that it won't work. We're contemplating IUI/IVF in the new year and are naturally worried that we'll spend a ton of money and use all our energy going through IVF and still not get our baby. But the way I look at it is that I would rather try and fail than not try. I would seriously regret never trying. I'm just not ready to give up yet, and if you are not ready either then you have to keep going, don't you?

Hello,

Try to keep positive and try to relax. You may be feeling even more anxious about the future because of all the hormonal changes you are going through.

I do hope that you get pregnant. Good luck.