I just need to vent my feelings because I am embarassed to talk about it to my dh. He will just think I am being silly and getting obsessed by it - I am I know. I cant control this strong urge to have another baby. I cant handle another month going by.
Dh has been sweet and finally realises ho much this means to me and said he does want it to which made me so happy so this month I just really thought it happened.
I have been feeling so pregnant for the last week.
I'm due on Thursday and I have a horrible taste all day in my mouth amongst other pregnancy symptoms but today the feeling of my period coming is so obvious to me I feel like I've been an idiot thinking I could be pregnant.
I tested today and got a BFN, I know I should of used the first wee of the day but I was so convinced I was. Its like nothing matters to me in that moment when I am waiting for the result to appear.
Everything is on hold for me right now.
Although I have strong feelings of a period coming I also have strong pregnancy symtoms too. I was even off my veg tonight which always happens when to me when pregnant.
Its probably in my mind.
I just wish it was Friday so I can move on from here.
Sorry for feeling sorry for myself, I dont even expect anyone to read this just had to get it out - again...