Sorry if this is a bit of a ramble. DH and I already have 2DC together. I have always said I wanted a 3rd and DC wanted 2 but was open to the idea of another. Time is ticking on, we wouldn’t want a big gap if we did have another and our youngest is already 2 and will be 3 schools years ahead of possible DC3.
We’ve been having conversations about it for months. We talked again last week and DH said he would like another but still has concerns about how we’d manage. He went on a work trip and came back saying how much he’s missed us all, especially the kids.
Anyway he initiated DTD and no condoms, I asked if he wanted to use one, said no, I checked he was sure and he was certain. He knew I was in my fertile window and we have conceived our other children on 1st cycle each time. I understood this to mean he was open to getting pregnant. Last night we DTD again and he said we wanted to use condoms again. I said surely it doesn’t matter, the ship has sailed but he was insistent. Ovulation day was yesterday so now I don’t know what to think.
Obviously I’m planning to chat to him but he’s out all day today. I can’t help thinking if we’re lucky enough to get 1st cycle again that he isn’t really ready and will end up resenting me. I considered going to get MAP but decided not to.
Not sure what I wanted from this post but it helps to get it all out.