Just having a rant

[TigerLily04]

I am so pissed off with myself. I am convinced I’m pregnant due to symptoms but BFNs on FRER. I ovulated 20 Aug so 12dpo. My last pregnancy (ended in MC) was a year ago this week and I was convinced some sort of divine intervention would make the stars align and exactly a year later I’d find out I was pregnant. But no it doesn’t appear so. I am more annoyed that my body has given me all these symptoms, why is it so cruel 😩

Just having a rant because TTC is such an emotional rollercoaster and I feel like no one else around me understands the heartbreak every month of negatives when all you want to see is a BFP.

I think I’d be less pissed off if my boobs didn’t feel like 2 giant watermelons on my chest 😂

My sympathies.

A lot of the symptoms people associate with pregnancy (e.g. mood swing, tender boobs, etc) can be attributed to your progesterone levels peaking.

If you're symptom spotting it doesn't matter if you're pregnant, you can and will find a pregnancy symptom because it's progesterone. Stays high if you're pregnant, but only drops off when your period starts.

The month you don't experience anything will probably the BFP lol. Good luck

hi! I tracked every symptom for every cycle for both the year before I started TTC, and the near 18m I was TTC before I got my BFP. Eventually I then combined all my data and wrote out all these symptoms by DPO, and I genuinely had almost every symptom on every day over that time frame. Ie I had every symptom such as nausea/bloating/cramps/dizziness/sore boobs/not sore boobs every day from 2dpo to 14dpo at some point during this time frame of tracking. So of course every month I thought I was pregnant as it would be slightly different from the month before, but in hindsight it must have just been my normal hormonal fluctuations.
the month I finally got my bfp I actually had less symptoms that I often did (just light cramps from 6-12dpo) so it just shows that for me, “symptoms” are completely unreliable.
best of luck with everything, I know how hard this rollercoaster can be! Xxx

Thank you both for replying! I know it’s just symptom spotting and being more “in tune” with your body that causes it but it’s just so bloody hard. Had an another negative on a digital clearblue this morning so pretty safe to say im out this month. Temp hasn’t dropped yet but guessing that will tonight and AF will arrive bang on time tomorrow.

I’m just so fed up of trying now. I wish someone had a crystal ball and could tell me when and then I’d be like ok fine it will happen in another 6 months or whatever 😂 I just feel like I can’t do much more to make it happen and when everyone around is pregnant/has newborns it’s just exhausting being in this TTC cycle. Looking forward to the day I can stop tracking and pissing on sticks 😂

I fully get it, it’s so unbelievably hard 😢 the thing I used to struggle with the most was I would put loads of effort into convincing myself that it was ok and normal for it to take longer in some women, and finally get to a better place mentally, for then someone at work or whatever to announce they got pregnant accidentally, and then that would immediately send me straight backwards thinking HOW can it be normal for it to take so long for me, and they’re getting pregnant on the pill!!! I was forever in that awful loop, so hang in there, it’s so so tough xxxx