TTC - In the Dreaded 2 week wait - Had a setback last night 10DPO

[Seasaltandgrass]

So im an emotional wreck in my first 2 week wait. Apologies for TMI below. I have been tracking everything. I was feeling optimistic, but not sure now. Looking for some re assurance more than anything.

First cycle after stopping pill | Trying to conceive baby #1

🗓️ Tuesday 8th July Day one of the wait. Did the deed so now the waiting game begins for us...Mood: 😐 Calm-ish, hopeful

🗓️ Thursday 10th July Did the deed I'm having some lower cramps, and I think I saw some brown discharge starting. Mood: 🤔 Curious. A bit hopeful.

🗓️ Friday 11th July Brown/pink spotting when I wiped today. It's very light, not like a period at all. Mood: 👀 Watching closely

🗓️ Saturday 12th July I stained my knickers with more brown discharge. It's still going. Mood: 🧩 Clues adding up...

🗓️ Sunday 13th July We Did the deed. Still spotting later, but it's light. Mood: ⏳ Tense. Wanting confirmation.

🗓️ Monday 14th July The discharge seems to have stopped. I'm really tired, and my boobs are starting to hurt. Mood:⚖️ Balanced hope. Watching everything.

🗓️ Tuesday 15th July My boobs feel full at the top. I'm waking a lot in the night, which isn't usual for me. Mood: 😳 Getting hopeful.

🗓️ Wednesday 16th July My boobs are now very sore. I even complained cuddling in bed. My areolas look lighter, and I've noticed little bumps around my nipples. Mood: 🚀 Hope rising fast.

🗓️ Thursday 17th July Still sore boobs, but I'm sleeping better. My mood's been up and down. Tired again today.Mood: 🕵️ Quietly optimistic.

🗓️ Friday 18th July My nipples were really sore today. Also, I've had a weird tummy feeling near my belly button. No discharge in my underwear. Mood: 📈 This could be it.

🗓️ Saturday 19th July No real changes today. I had vivid dreams and a restless night. Still no bleeding. Mood: 😬 Nervous patience.

🗓️ Sunday 20th July I've got a scratchy throat and woke up sweaty in the night. Still no bleeding. Is this a symptom shift? Mood: 🤔 Confused, but curious.

🗓️ Monday 21st July We had pub lunch, and I crashed asleep in the afternoon. I blamed the sun, but something felt... hormonal. Mood: 😐 Uncertain, waiting.

🗓️ Tuesday 22nd July I'm grumpy today. Full boobs again. Then I found brown discharge in my underwear. My mood crashed. Mood: 😓 Emotional wreck.

🗓️ Wednesday 23rd July (today) I woke up scared of staining the bed. I used a tampon, and it came out very dark brown. Then I wiped and saw fresh red — only a tiny bit. I asked to test — we did, but the test was a dye flood mess. My mood is all over the place. Mood: 🎢 Absolute emotional rollercoaster.

Kindly, this is only your first cycle, you're going to drive yourself nuts! This is far too much analysis of every little thing. TTC journeys can take a while, like even a year is normal. If you go this deep every cycle, I can't imagine you'd be mentally in a good place. Please try to take a step back and enjoy the journey for now. I truly hope you get your little miracle as soon as possible, but please don't do this to yourself every month. It's too much.

Agree with previous reply it’s only cycle number one, you will drive yourself insane. And you do overthink every single thing you wouldn’t normally notice I’ve been there myself. Looking at your dates your 15 days post ovulation so the likelihood is that you’d have a positive test at this point if you have conceived is higher than not. Even if you do everything timed perfect you only have a 25% chance of conceiving. It could be a very quick turn around but it’s good to know the facts

This sounds like a normal cycle. It is a lot but it’s what we all went through when we first started tracking. We take a lot of stock into every little symptom. Just a word of warning, looking at these things so closely will hurt because normal PMS/progesterone symptoms tend to be the same. And you can exhaust yourself quickly in the ttc process if you think every thing is a sign.

but anyway we all did it and then eventually we learned. I’m sorry and wishing you the best in future cycles 🩷