I'm off again imagining pregnancy symptoms

[lostittoday]

Well here I go again.
I am ttc my 2nd dc its been 9 months now.
Currently on cd 27 and for the past few days I have felt nauseated, no tenderness in boobs, but more of a slight discomfort that comes and goes, also feeling very tired, and a bit of a windy stomach.
Now I have no idea when af should be due as I have been irregular ever since I started ttc with cycles ranging anywhere from 23 days up to 63 days.
I do have thyroid problems which has made me feel crappy at times so I really am not sure what to think.
All that I know is that this ttc lark is messing me up emotionally I am 37 years of age and I need it to happen now.
I cannot face af arriving or having a bfn I will go into melt down.
I am supposed to have a day 2 blood test as soon as af arrives so I am constantly knicker checking.
I am so hoping it won,t come to that and I will be pregnant instead.
I mean for christ sake I have almost convinced myself I am and I am feeling a little excited how ridiculous is that.
Although I have had one previous month with symptoms like this and not been pregnant I just cannot help hoping.
At the dame time I just dread taking another knock back.
Is there anybody else who atm is feeling like me.

hi lostittoday, it is so hard isnt it, im feeling symptoms aswell, but didnt really try this month as we go on holiday soon, so wanted to get that out of the way first. i have tender boobs at the moment but af is due anywere between 5 to 10 days so its prob that. I was feeling alittle sick a few days ago too but that seems to be lessoning now, i also had a crampy belly but even that seems to have gone. Its funny because i wasn't planning on getting pg yet, but now think i will be disappointed even though i was waiting for a couple more months before trying. I really hope you get a pos result, but i bet you dont know when to test as your periods can differ, all i can say is just keep testing every few days.... im sure it will happen for you soon.

hi lostit - been "following" your posts and really feel for you. I have done this exact same thing the last few cycles - tis driving me insane - I am on cd20 and ov'd on cd17 ( i think!) so am trying really hard not to obsess over my temp chart looking for signs of implantation/pg - but its very hard. I promised myself I would not temp today but cxouldn't resist then was upset when temp had dropped (as I am convinced if i am pg it will climb steadily and never drop in the luteal phase - no real evidence for this apart from thats what most (but not all)of the PG charts on fertilit friend do mental I know