Now i don't know what to do :$

[pucca]

I know this will sound ridiculous, but after my hellish few weeks of thinking i was pg, i don't know what to do...

I didn't want another baby, but after all that i am thinking ! i suppose i am a little scared of making that leap, i have 2 dc already... dd - 4yo, and ds - 21 mth. I know that no one else can make this decision, i can't imagine not having another i suppose but then there are so many things running through my mind too, the bedroom thing (we live in a 3 bed house) we love where we live and can't imagine ever moving now, we live where i grew up and it is so lovely here, would it be a tad cruel to expect one child to share?

Also things are just getting a little easier with my 2 dc, dd starts school in Sept, and ds is getting much easier. I also had an awful section with ds, and the thought of going through that again puts me off, but i can't help thinking that with all that has happened with the mishap lately that we should have another.

I just wish i could make a decision, and stick to it, but i keep changing my mind .

Dh has said he is happy if we don't and happy if we do, and it is ultimately my choice.

I think you'll cope with it all if you are pregnant & if you're not yet then don't get too hung up about it & maybe it's better to think if it happens it happens & take it from there.

It sounds like you'd really like another & children are very adaptable,I'm sure yours would be fine.As for the sharing issue I really believe that's not a problem.All kids have to learn to share.I grew up sharing a bedroom with my 2 sisters while my brother had a room too then when we were older our parents could afford a bigger house & we had a room each.But at the time when we had to share we just accepted it & thought nothing of it.

I am in a very similar position to you.I have 2DS.The eldest is 4yrs & the youngest is just 2yrs.Last mth we decided to try for another(we also live in a 3bed house).I've been up & down, should we shouldn't we.Last night I was crying saying I want to keep trying.This morning I woke at 6 to both boys & thought I really don't need another! But I could be pregnant already.If I am I am,if I'm not then I have to hurry up & decide.Plus I'm almost 40.

We've thought thru the practical things too,like also needing a bigger car etc. For me I wonder if it's because of my age & feeling like it's my last chance.Life would definitely be easier with 2 but I'm sure we'd still be happy with 3,even if it's hard in the short time.

Not sure if that's helped at all but just wanted to say I completely understand where you're coming from Good luck