Hi I am just 38 live outside the uk and have earthside older children. Me & dh have been uncareful see what happens for 2 years I fell pg last August 24 & had a 10 week mmc in early October24. We have not been careful but not actively trying since and not fallen pg. The loss has caused me some anxiety & trauma and I can't rationalise my thought's. I have a 4 week holiday back to the UK booked for mid July me&the kids to visit family dh has to work. So overthinking my head is saying for the next few months we need to hold off ttc as if I was to fall pg now or in the next 2 months I will be still in the first trimester and the loss has made me terrified at the thought of being away from our now home & local ob and ofcourse dh if anything is to go wrong again. On the other hand the thought of not having any hope untilll the end of August is hurting too and being 38 do I have the time to delay ttc it's such a hard headspace to be. Anyone like to input what they feel they might do