Hand hold please, feeling super sad :(

[Ruby233]

Hi ladies
Not sure if this is the right place for this but I am 9/10 dpo and had BFN. Its really upset me this cycle and this time last year was when I fell preg and ended up having a MVA awake 2 days before my wedding for a blighted ovum.
To say this year has been tough is an understatement. I never knew how much this would impact me. My cycles went crazy long for 7 months (50-42 days) and then down to 35 days and now finally as of last cycle back down to my old 32 days, so finally some improvement. Therefore I've only had 8 cycles but I am still not pregnant and not being pregnant this month has upset me so much.
I keep thinking what if there is something wrong with me now? What if it never happens?
My friends are all having kids now and I feel so sad.
We concieved the 2nd month we tried last time and now I feel hopeless... 30 year old and hub is 31.
Just need a hand hold today please :(

Hand hold from me xx I was very sad this morning as well with a negative again 8/9dpo.
Can you get referred for fertility investigations to see if everything is okay? I hope now your cycles are back to normal it will happen quickly for you from here on x

@Wednesdayonline thank you so much for replying 💕
I was going to give it to May as it will be a year since the miscarriage was over to see my GP again. I spoke to my GP end of last year and she just said some women take long to recover due to stress and trauma but the wait stresses me out so its a horrible cycle...
8/9dpo I would say good chance that could change tmo still for you! How long have you been trying 😘

I hope you get your bfp before May then! The stress is a vicious cycle isn't it - I find it so hard to stay calm especially the last week before period 😅
I have an 11 day luteal phase so once I get to around 9dpo I usually feel like I'm out. Fingers crossed though. Came off the pill end of May last year, really been paying more attention to it since December though since nothing was happening 🫤

I have a 11/12 lutual phase too so I'm the same as you with counting myself out. However I've read so much of ladies with the same length not getting a postive till day of.
I have everything crossed for you soon, this is mentally a very frustrating journey
Esp seeing friends having babies now

One of my oldest friends recently told me shes pregnant and it happened accidentally while she was using contraception 😂 if only it could happen so easily for us!

Sending you a big hand hold. AF came for me on Friday which was our due date of our MMC life can be so cruel.
I hope your baby will be sent to you soon xxx

@Joleyjojo I feel your pain and I'm so sorry.
We will get our rainbows, I just never knew how mentally challenging it would be. I keep telling myself I will be stronger because of it but this BFN has made for a very sad sad sad Sunday 😔 sending lots of ❤️

Hugs to you❤️ I feel every word. I had an ectopic last year and since then my cycles have been irregular (on the longer side too!) and it's been so difficult to pin point ovulation. Majority of my friends are either pregnant with their first or second - it feels like announcement after announcement! Never thought it would be a tough and lonely journey❤️ hope your baby comes soon x

I wish I could say something to help all I can do is offer sympathy as i understand what you’re going through. We’ve been ttc for 4 years. Unexplained infertility and have had multiple failed ivf cycles. Currently waiting to do a transfer of our last frozen embryo. It’s really really hard to go through difficulties

Just commenting to say I understand how you feel and you’re not alone. It doesn’t matter how supportive partners/friends/family are, TTC and going through the negatives each month is such a lonely and sad feeling.

While you’re waiting to see your GP would you maybe think about some private testing? I used Hertility to put my mind at ease. It’s a bit pricey but the results are pretty in depth. And you can take the report to your GP if anything does come up? I feel like I need to be proactive about something we have very little control over so that really helped me to feel like I was doing something.

I’ve also found “what’s meant to be won’t pass me by” as a good little mantra to keep positive. Not saying it works and I don’t cry every bloody month but when I’m feeling hopeless it helps very slightly.

Sending you a hand squeeze x

Thank you everyone for your lovely messages.
I just wanted to update everyone, after having my meltdown my period didn't arrive... I tested last night and this morning and have BFP, I think I have ovulated later. Super early days and faint lines so could turn into a chemical but there is hope. I have concieved the same month as my miscarriage last year... the universe ✨️💖

This mornings test attached, darker than yesterday but still faint... fingers crossed

Try and relax, eat well, don’t think too far ahead xx

That’s amazing @Ruby233 congratulations!!! How lovely! 🥰

I’m 9 dpo and had a bfn today, so know how you all feel x

@Ruby233 Congratulations🤗🤗🤗...do you have any symptoms?

Sadly updating you all after 3 days of good postives I have just started my period 1 day late, so a chemical pregnancy.
Trying to look at it as my body has rebalanced after the blighted ovum last year and its ready to conceive again. Trying to feel relieved that it can happen.
Thank u all for the support, its just so hard when I turn 31 this year I really thought I'd have a baby by now. Life...

Really sorry to hear this. Glad you’re looking at it from a positive angle. Your body takes time to heal so this is a start but understandable how disappointed you must be feeling. TTC is the biggest rollercoaster of emotions it’s so hard. Sending you love x

Handhold and hugs for you. We have been TTC for 10 years now, on our last try with donated embryos. It's so hard but we are stronger than we think. You are still young and have time on your side.