After a hell of a couple of years, with multiple close bereavements, a miscarriage, a two years of absolute hell with work, fertility investigations, a PCOS diagnosis, and several very close friends and family members having their babies right around the time I had been due...I just got my BFP, one year and a couple of months after my loss.
My periods had completely stopped and it turns out I wasn't ovulating at all. One course of letrazole, and here we are!
It hasn't fully sunk in at all, but I'm getting really emotional at my desk (WFH!) because this week is also the second anniversary of my sibling's passing, so I'm already a bit of a wreck.
I don't really know why I'm posting. Im yo-yo-ing between feeling elated that the treatment worked so quickly, guilty that I'm feeling happy at such a sad time, terrified because my last miscarriage broke me completely and I don't know whether I can go through it again, worried that I've just tested once with my last test and can't get out to buy any more to make sure it isn't a false positive...
This is so, so wanted, and unexpected because I genuinely thought I was out for this month. No missed period because i don't have regular cycles. I only tested by chance (and slightly early) because we're going away for the weekend and I wanted to know whether I could enjoy some wine to cheer myself up! I'm just completely overwhelmed and won't get the chance to speak to my DH and sort my head out until he gets home, so I'm going to suffer through the last few hours of work and hope you lovely bunch can help me stop weeping!