IVF positive test anxiety

[Sep88]

After YEARS of trying and waiting I’m testing positive 12 days after my first fresh transfer. I’m 35 and it’s the first time I’ve ever had a bfp. I’m so pleased, however, I was not expecting the wave of absolute anxiety and terror that has come with it.

I’ve been testing every morning since 6dpt, and the first few days I felt pregnant (tired, nauseous) but the last few days I’ve been feeling fine, apart from sore boobs. I can’t stop analysing the tests (does the line look fainter, how quickly is it appearing etc). But the line is still getting stronger.

I can’t stop thinking the chances of my little bean making it were not favourable. My two younger sisters both had their first babies in the last year, so I keep thinking about the fact 1 in 3 pregnancy’s end in miscarriage- which would make this pregnancy doomed. I know that thinking is mad, but I can’t help it.

I was so sure this transfer wouldn’t work, I just can’t get my head around it. I’m trying to tell myself even if this one doesn’t work it’s good that it’s implanted at all. Is anyone else in the same boat? How did you make it through to your viability scan without going mental?!

Hi lovely. First congratulations on seeing that second line. It’s an incredible feeling after waiting so long isn’t it?

I can totally relate to the anxiety of it too. Our third fresh ivf cycle worked, after years of trying and failing, and the fear of losing it was immense.

In terms of symptoms they come and go and really are nothing you can hang your hat on. In both my pregnancies it took weeks before I really felt pregnant. It’s so frustrating your body doesn’t confirm it more clearly and consistently from the start.

There is not much you can do to secure or jeopardise your chances - including being stressed - please remind yourself this will have no bearing. Keep a quiet faith if you can - this embryo HAS implanted and is making itself at home.

in terms of additional reassurance you could ask your clinic if they’ll do blood tests to see if your hcg is doubling. And you could consider early scans. I think either way you lose your mind to be totally honest. You want it so much and have so little control.

i really feel for you, and remember well the hope and fear.

Everything crossed for a smooth healthy pregnancy ahead xx