TTC journey

[Myrainbowbaby]

I have been reading a lot of threads recently in the background and I haven’t found anyone in my position and I really need some help from people going through a similar situation so please be kind to me.

Me 22 and my partner 27 have been TTC for 4 months, now I know this is not long in the grand scheme of things I know but this whole journey has consumed me to the point I can think of nothing else everyday. In our first month trying I fell pregnant but had a chemical pregnancy shortly after. Seeing those faint two lines felt too good to be true and I knew by how faint they were deep down it was not going to last but miscarrying has completely broken me I cry all the time and I struggle to be happy most days.

I am more upset and anxious about how long this journey is going to take, I can’t deal with the waiting and the constant feeling of doubt or disappointment that this two lines are never going to show up for me again. My partner was diagnosed 4 years ago with low sperm motility but has not been tested since I am too scared to find out the results. I take some enjoyment away from the fact he was able to get me pregnant but then the doubt and fear comes flooding back day after day wondering if it will ever be my time.

Around me I see family and friends getting pregnant and starting a family and just feel I won’t be able to get what I want. I know I am young but that not the point you should be able to have a child with the person you love at whatever age you decide it is right!

I need some success stories or guidance on how you get through these process, because what should have been an enjoyable experience has turned into something that fills me with fear and has really ruined the thought of getting pregnant again as I’m scared of miscarrying again. Please help

Anyone please :(

Sorry for your loss OP

Is there a reason DH found out his motility was low at 23? Were you TTC 4yrs ago? Any reason he hasn't had it checked since?

TTC can be stressful, but if you are finding it all consuming and not able to get on with regular, day to day activities I'd suggest speaking to your GP.
You have age on your side if you needed to eventually have IVF, but its very early days for you. It can feel like a lifetime, I understand, but its not. We TTC 12yrs lost 3 and have no living children. We had no medical issues found at all, but is unusual to have no reason for sub-fertility. At under 35, TTC for 12mths is the norm before most investigations are done. The fact DH has had issues 'might' mean other tests can be done sooner though. Wishing you all the best OP x

@sherriumi

Thank you for your message, reaching out on here has really helped me people have been so kind and so willing to share their stories and it makes some of the emotional pain go away to know it does get better and thing will be okay.

i really hope that one day i can reply to this thread with the news of little blessing and everything will have been worth it! For now I am enjoying taking advice and hearing others stories!

I will definitely look into the tea idea thanks!

@JC03745

My partner was tested in a previous relationship he was curious I think more than anything. He can’t remember exactly what his lifestyle was 4 years ago but he was definitely drinking a lot than he is now we don’t really drink at all now so I’m hoping this change in lifestyle has made a positive difference! He’s more active than before but has slipped off the gym recently but is getting back into it now.

It does feel like a lifetime when you want this and time is in my side but it’s hard to ignore the fact what other around my have and are able to achieve!

Im sending positive thoughts and baby dust for you in the future, I really admire your persistence! And I’m sorry about your losses going through it once was hard enough so I can’t image what it felt like!