Due date approaching TW Loss

[MyselfWho]

I'm feeling so disheartened. I had a missed miscarriage in May. I was supposed to be due in December and every month, the tests show one stupid dark line and pure white everywhere else. I have been trying since May 2023, had two chemicals/early miscarriages as well and now nothing for 5 months... I'm starting to wonder if it will ever happen. I have one living child and he has half siblings but I want to experience pregnancy again myself so badly.

I had this thought in my head when I had my last miscarriage that by the time baby was due I'd probably be pregnant again and that would get me through, but I only have 2 cycles left now and it's looking less and less likely.

How do I stop feeling so bad? I know this amount of stress can't be good for me, but every month I have the same obsessive testing and horrible disappointment 😞

Ahh I’m sorry, for your losses. It’s tough when your due date approaches. Especially seeing others have babies. I would have been due early October and there’s so many people on social media having babies now and due in the next few weeks. Or there’s even a few people I know in real life due around now as well. It can be quite sad can’t it.
I don’t have a huge amount to say how to cope with it, but just wanted to say you’re not alone in feeling down about it.

It’s so difficult. I’ve no advice, but you aren’t alone. I passed my first due date in June, and thought I would be pregnant again by then. But I wasn’t, I’d had another loss. That due date is in November. It’s really not easy, I know exactly how you feel. I too am 5 months on from my last loss x

Sorry for your loss, it’s really hard. We booked a night away on what would have been my due date, it made it easier to feel like we were doing something nice for ourselves. And honestly, I stopped testing after the MC, until my period was late, in fact I didn’t keep any tests jn the house to remove temptation. It really helped me.

I don’t necessarily have any advice but I’m in a very similar position. I tested positive in April but it was unfortunately ectopic - my likely due date would have been Christmas eve, so Christmas is going to be very tough this year. We’re taking a pause after this cycle due to our wedding next year that I don’t want to be heavily pregnant/a few weeks postpartum for. I’m at the tail end of my TWW for this, my final cycle of the year, so it’s a lot of feelings. I think just giving yourself the time to grieve, and feel ok in the grief. Have you done anything for the losses? We named ours after the loss, and I have a bracelet with the December birth stone. We’re also going to have an Angel bauble with their initial on our Christmas tree. I’m not sure if something similar would be comforting for you? Counselling may also be a potential option - other than that, just keep trying, your time will come. Baby dust to the both of us, wishing you the best x

I'm very much the same too. MMC in the Autumn last year. Wasnt pregnant by due date. Found out I was a couple of weeks after but it turned Chemical so now on third cycle post Chemical.
You aren't alone but it is horrible and I feel your pain x