Early Tester... cruel evap?

[RDev1990]

Title says it all! Early tester after having miscarriage, we are desperately ready for our first baby. I'm around 8/9DPO so very early. Is this a cruel evap line? I can see a bit of colour on the bottom but could this just be a bit of dye catching?
I had horrendous cramping 2 days ago, nausea and headaches but this has happened on previous cycles (not as strong) and I wasn't pregnant for those.

Anyway.. let me know what you think and keen to connect with those trying over the last part of this year. If this month isn't ours then hope I can make some company here on the horrendous 2 week waits x

No AF as of yet today and all cramping has stopped. Morrisons cheapy is a BFN.
I was due on yesterday.

Hi @RDev1990 I wanted to reply because I too have had an evap/indent this month when I stupidly tested at 8dpo 🤦🏼‍♀️ I have had stark white bfns since and I'm currently 12dpo and AF is due tomorrow.

I haven't really had any symptoms at all apart from a weird pain low down on my left side, which I convinced myself was late implantation.

These forums do tend to make you feel like you're 100% out of you don't have a BFP by 8/9/10dpo even though everyone says you aren't out until AF arrives.

I hope you get your BfP soon 💕

Thank you so much for replying. I too hope you get your BFP soon.
It's been a really weird month and it's been really tricky. Symptom spotting is inevitable when you're so sensitive to what's going on with your body. I'm so in tune with my body after 3 years of trying. I hadn't felt what I've felt this month since I got pregnant and sadly miscarried in 2021. Some people say, if you're having symptoms, then you should have a BFP and if you don't then they aren't symptoms at all but this isn't necessarily true. Having worked with a miscarriage charity for years and speaking with multiple doctors, you can indeed have symptoms if your HCG is low and therefore doubling at a slower speed, you can have symptoms but not a positive pregnancy test until later. A dear friend of mine didn't get her positives until a week after her period was due for each pregnancy she had (all of which were successful, healthy, pregnancies). She ovulated mid cycle, not late, confirmed by temping and ovulation sticks.
So I would be careful if you're on this journey with listening to anyone who dismisses your own acknowledgements of things your body may be presenting that's out of the ordinary. This also isn't me giving false hope. That month may be a strange anomaly, like the one I'm currently in, where it doesn't lead to pregnancy but I know this month has been totally different to anything I've experienced since my last pregnancy 3 years ago and so I believe something has tried to happen but isn't strong enough to proceed. That's my human instinct. I'm OK with not being pregnant if my AF shows but I'm also going to acknowledge how in tune with my body I am and how confident I am that this month has been different for whatever reason.

What a tough journey aye? Sending you positive vibes and I'll keep this thread updated until my AF shows which I'm quite confident it may do in the next few days. X