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Late miscarriage grief and hope

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serasera19 · 14/07/2024 09:36

I lost my beautiful little boy at 20 weeks 3 weeks ago. He was my first baby and I am beyond devastated. I went to see him and held his hand, it breaks my heart every time I picture him. I had on/off bleeding from 13 weeks which must have had something to do with it but I've had a lot of tests and they have all come back 'normal' so far, apart from TSH at 4.45. Also still waiting for PM. My partner has brought me on holiday in a beautiful hotel but I can't stop crying. I suppose I am looking for people who have been through the same and stories of hope. We want to TTC again as soon as I ovulate - I know it's soon but it's the only thing that gives me any comfort. I'm also 35 and terrified of my age and it happening again. Any stories of Hope much appreciated xx

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Dalmationday · 16/04/2026 11:07

I’m so please things worked out for you OP x

1yearplan · 11/05/2026 06:35

This is such wonderful news op! My little girl is 18 months old now. Babies are such precious blessings

Calliopespa · 11/05/2026 23:52

Vibrant88 · 16/04/2026 10:55

@serasera19 thats absolutely stunning news thankyou for your reply. Congratulations to you.
@Calliopespa i certainly won’t be rushing anything I need to get all the reports back first it seems I have a blood clotting disorder that has been coming back through lots of tests so very possible linked to baby boys passing and maybe the early miscarriage of his twin. But all results including PM will likely not be back for 6 months. I will be 38 then any partner 46 so we will see what happens. Either way I feel now what will be will be if I don’t get pregnant again it’s because I’m not supposed to. If I do then fingers crossed baby makes it earth side healthy. My little boy arrives back to the mortuary today and his cremation date should be back to me tomo. I’ve just been through all his scans and paperwork and nothing makes sense it’s just all so horrid. But we all know that feeling that’s what brings us here. Sending warm wishes and baby love to each and everyone of you and massive love to our little perfect angels ❤️❤️👼🏻👼🏻👼🏻

How are you holding up @Vibrant88 ?

Wishing you the best.

Vibrant88 · 14/05/2026 07:11

Calliopespa · 11/05/2026 23:52

How are you holding up @Vibrant88 ?

Wishing you the best.

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I’m doing ok. Just want the post mortem results back so I can decide if I want to try again or not. As I’m a high risk pregnancy already it’s hard to decide. The grief hits me differently every day. Some days I’m good some days I’m really not. Thanks for checking xx

Calliopespa · 14/05/2026 07:35

Vibrant88 · 14/05/2026 07:11

I’m doing ok. Just want the post mortem results back so I can decide if I want to try again or not. As I’m a high risk pregnancy already it’s hard to decide. The grief hits me differently every day. Some days I’m good some days I’m really not. Thanks for checking xx

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Plod on - one day at a time.

And do give yourself some treats while you get through this time of uncertainty.

Either way, you will soon have a plan and can commit to making it the best it can be either way.

Sending strength and best wishes.xx

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