Feeling a bit low

[Cariad90]

Just posting to get things off my chest really. I have a 4 year old, and we had 2 miscarriages before she was born. I put off ttc again for ages because I wanted to lose weight but never managed to lose more than a few pounds, and now we are ttc anyway even though I am an unhealthy weight. I feel stupid for delaying as I might aswell have ttc years ago when our chances were higher (as we would have been a bit younger) and there was a smaller age gap. Now I’m almost 35 and conscious that since we had multiple miscarriages before baby no.1 the chances are I’ll have the same issues this time. I feel like I’ve potentially jeopardised my daughter’s chance of a sibling for no reason 😔

Also down because I’ve come off the pill this month to ttc and have been doing ovulation tests but they’re all coming up with low fertility.

Sorry you're feeling so down.

It can take a few cycles to get things back to normal after coming off the pill, keep tracking to get an idea of how things are going and hopefully it'll settle down soon.

Having 2 losses statistically does not make you any more likely to have future losses so try not to think too hard on this (although I definitely understand the anxiety that the previous losses can cause). Remember you also have evidence you can have a successful pregnancy.

I hope you have a quick and straightforward journey this time around, and you can always come and rant here about anything! I love how supportive these boards are, they have been keeping me sane for a long time xx

Thank you for the kind words 💕 I’m just a bit disheartened because I bought a pack of clear blue ovulation tests and I only have 4 or 5 left and not even a blinking smiley 🤦🏻‍♀️ I’m not really sure how they work when you’ve only just stopped taking the pill as it’s not a normal cycle. Hopefully once I’ve had a period things will go back to normal 🤞🏻

@Cariad90 I totally understand - last miscarriage I had I went through an entire box before I actually got a positive, it's so frustrating and disheartening. Just keep trying to be as healthy as you can be. Keeping fingers crossed you get that peak soon x