Quitting medical marijuana while ttc but symptoms of depression reoccuring?

[RKH]

I'm 28 years old, 29 in 3 months.

I have a history of being on antidepressants for 6 years, stopped 2 years ago due to them losing their effectiveness.

Last year, I was prescribed medical marijuana legally which I vaped using microdoses around every other day, this helped my mood significantly and provided a lot of clarity to my mind. Generally, when I'm depressed my mind goes foggy and I find it hard to think straight.

I got married May 2024, and I quit just prior to my wedding. It's been just over a month of not vaping, although, I did do it once when my period came in June as I was feeling horrible and it did help. I didn't do it again because I read that when TTC, it can affect probability of getting pregnant due to it affecting hormones, ovulation and implantation. Apparently a study found that people using marijuana while trying to concieve are 40 percent less likely to get preganant so i haven't touched it again.

My husband is really great and treats me well, supports me when he can. But it's difficult when my brains baseline is to be depressed. I do go to the gym and eat fairly okay. I'm really missing the uplifting it used to give me and I really just hope I can conceive quickly and get this process done so I can go back to it (obviously I wouldn't do it if I were to breastfeed). I've brought some ovulation strips to try and boost chances of conception..

I don't really know why I made this thread, I'm just finding it overwhelming. I moved in with my in-laws which isn't too bad as we have an annexe but it's still a huge adjustment, I feel like I have to pretend and I feel like im not the person I want to be around everyone, they try to make conversation but my brain is just foggy sometimes.

I don't know what to do, maybe I could consider CBD oil as it doesn't have THC?

Get a really good psychotherapist and have talking therapy, is my advice

Forgot to add, I did four months intensive CBT last year already and it was good but I don't know if I'd want to go through it again for various reasons

Who prescribed this to you? If they are a responsible health care professional I’d discuss it with them. But this would be a very very unusual scenario in the UK, there are a tiny number of situations in which cannabis is prescribed and depression is not one of them. So probably your best option is to see your GP for a proper assessment of your mental health.

Try a psychotherapist, a trauma informed, bottom up one. I say this from experience.

second this. If CBT didn’t work for you, or you’d prefer not to try this again, there are different types of therapy you can have (person centred, psychotherapy, DBT, solution focused, EMDR, etc). All have merits for supporting with depression (EMDR is more if depression is from trauma). Sometimes it’s also down to individual therapists rather than the type of therapy (how you connect with them, how comfortable you feel with them etc).