Hi all, I can't at the moment help but feel sorry for myself. Ive wrote about this before, I lost my twin babies last Winter - one of my boys was stillborn and my other little boy lived for four days before passing away in our arms. That was over 7 months ago. There was nothing genetically wrong or anything. It was rare twin condition that identicals can get and sadly we were one of the unlucky ones.
Admittedly and I know I shouldn't have,we started trying again very quickly within 7 weeks, partly because the grief was so overwhelming and coming home to that empty nursery was hell.
My cycle still hasn't really regulated, I thought it had and then the last two cycles ovulation has been very late. I was fairly regular before giving birth to my sons. I took coq10 this month but stopped as I was getting positive opks but no other signs of ovulation. I eventually did ovulate but much later than normal.
I guess why I'm writing this is, I'm in month 6 now of trying with no luck. I miss my boys and all I want is to give them a sibling. I'm actually 6dpo but it's looks like according to my temp monitor I didn't dtd on ovulation day only all the way up to it so ruling myself out again. Sigh. Apologies for the rant. Just needed to vent. This is so hard.