Thinking of Second baby?

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As the title says we’re thinking of trying for a second baby but I don’t know if I’m sure but then again will I ever really know?

im afraid that I’m doing it because that’s what your meant to do…

but then again I do want my baby to have a sibling, I don’t have any relatives with young children for her to grow up with and we live in the country side , I don’t want her to be lonely, and ideally I wouldn’t want there to be a big age gap so they get the most benefit of being able to play with each other (2.8years between me and my brother and I feel even that was a bit much)

my lo will be one in a month and I’m thinking maybe after then would be a good time to start as it took us over 6 months to get pregnant the first time and with it being a c section I’m worried that could affect conception.?

which brings me on to the next point I ended up having a emergency c section and the whole thing was pretty traumatic and I didn’t bond right away with baby , which if I did this time I would feel guilty? :( but I was hoping having a planned c section might be healing on me mentally,

my baby also developed a bad bottle aversion due to reflux which ended up with me getting bad post natal depression.

i feel robbed of not being able to enjoy feeding my baby. Would a second baby being healing in this way ?

things have gotten so much better and dare I say easier and do I really want to mess up are lovely routine?

I don’t want my baby to be a only child and that would be my main reason to having another , is this a good enough reason 🥺

Hiya, I can't answer your main question but I wanted to say a few things. I had a textbook birth with my daughter but I did struggle to bond with her and go on to develop PPD and PPA. I hope that my next experience is healing for me but I am not putting any pressure on myself. It is not our fault that we had this experience and so we should feel no guilt at all if we do bond better with baby number 2. And if we don't, then we both know that it will come in time and it will be ok.

I can also really relate to your feeding issues. My daughter was very unwell and had to be fed via an NG tube from 2 months - almost 6 months. It was traumatic for me and robbed me of being able to bf her. However to be honest I've enjoyed formula feeding and the freedom that comes with it and I'm grateful that I've had the experience of both bfing and formula. For next time I will try to bf but I now know that actually formula is fine and I can use it if I need to. I think this experience has actually removed all pressure around bfing for me personally.

I have always known I want two and definitely want my daughter to have a sibling but I have the exact same feelings as you. However I just think for us it'll be worth any issues at the start. I look forward to my life in a couple of years and beyond and I know I want there to be two of them. Only you can decide if that's what you really want or not.

@imy thank you for taking the time to write a reply it means a lot 🥰
there’s all these expectations and it’s hard when things don’t work out how you had planned 😢