TTC after two losses

[ammmmmo]

Hi, I’m just feeling very down and need a place to vent.

We have a healthy 2 year old son who was our first pregnancy, totally uncomplicated, and the ignorance of this was bliss.

Since then we have tried and failed to conceive two times over. The first ended in a missed miscarriage at 11 weeks, the second a TFMR at 22 weeks due to severe heart defects.

I’m starting to feel that maybe a second child isn’t on the cards for us, but I can’t bring myself to accept that yet. We have been TTC again recently, I really thought this month we’d hit the ovulation timing perfectly, and was so hopeful when my period didn’t arrive yesterday when it was due. I really thought I was pregnant as I have also been feeling a little sick recently. Then bang this morning, period comes in full force, serious cramping and heavy flow (definitely not implantation bleeding as I tried to kid myself too).

It just makes me so sad to know that I’ve been pregnant 3 times, yet I only have one child at home. To make matters worse, my most recent pregnancy with my daughter who we TFMR - she would have been due next month. It’s a hard time knowing I should be 8 months pregnant now.

Sigh 😔

I’m so sorry for your losses @ammmmmo
I had my second MC 3 weeks ago at 12 weeks. My first one was at 10 weeks in November.
I can’t imagine having to go through that at 22 weeks, that is so devastating.

I don’t have any children, so I just have to try & hope that things will work out. I am struggling with the thought of it happening for a third time, as I don’t think I can bare going to another scan to be told there is no heartbeat. But the alternative is to not try & not have my dream. So I try and hold onto that bit of hope.

I was due my first one in the next 3 weeks so also having a hard time thinking what could have been.

I know our situations are different, but know that you aren’t alone in how you are feeling ❤️