TTC after a loss - Tested positive, and then faint line

[fingerscrossedmumma]

My mind is a mess - I had a MMC at 8 weeks in January and this was our first cycle properly trying again. I have shorter cycles so missed my period at 12DPO and did a pregnancy test.
Positive - relatively faint (I had a dye stealer for the last pregnancy) but still there.

I decided to test again the day after and it was even fainter / barely there - I am convinced that this is it and this is over.

Now two days later I still haven’t had bleeding, just continuous cramps. Any idea what I should expect? I refuse to test again and just wait for bleeding to start, and if it doesn’t in a week then I’ll take a test - I figured I should at least nourish my body as though I’m pregnant as, technically, as far as I know I am.

I guess people who are not anxious like me would have just got the positive test and celebrated - those people wouldn’t have felt the need to test again the next day! And they stay pregnant or at least blissfully unaware … could this be the case for me too?!

I don’t know why I’m posting this. I think I just want validation I’m not going mad.

You are 100% not going mad. Pregnancy after loss is incredibly difficult and as a self confessed POAS addict I would have done exactly the same and I am doing so, had a early loss in Jan which faded after a few days. So I 100% get how you feel, also very luckily tested this month and so far it’s getting darker but I had a huge panic on Tuesday when it was lighter than day before but it’s now getting darker again so not always the case that it’s over.

Sorry no words of wisdom but you are not going mad, everyone says not to keep testing but for me I need to know.

Sending hugs - you’ll get there this cycle or another xx