Coping with jealousy

[Beeches24]

Sometimes things don't seem fair. Anyone else feel similar

Had MMC in February so technically on my 2nd cycle ttc.

I'm struggling with jealousy. So many people around me have announced recently. I just keep wanting to know when it's my turn.

34 so time isn't completely on my side.

I hear you
I have miscarriage history
My immediate line manager is preg
As is another colleague..

I dont think its jealousy as such here
But its a bit triggering given miscarriage history..

My period is kinda late this time though so who knows

Keep ya chin up

Have u used hertility health ?
I really recommend them

I've tried to remember that my situation is mine - other people aren't getting pregnant to spite me, and there isn't a finite amount of babies in the world! you also don't (usually) know what it's taken for other people to get to their pregnancies - don't assume they've had it easy. Focus on what you can control. It took us 4-5 months after a MC - it can take time for the body to reset. And 34 isn't a cause for concern itself, it's reassuring you got pregnant already.

It's such an understandable feeling. It took 2.5 years for me to conceive with my ex which ended in MMC at 11 weeks. 4 months later my brother and sister in law conceived their first on a holiday that was meant to be a big blow out before they actually started trying so they never even had to think about TTC.

This time with my current partner it took 6 months TTC, ended in MMC at 10 weeks. His brother and partner were pregnant with their second, just 4 weeks ahead of us. They've had 2 healthy uncomplicated pregnancies, 2 lovely little boys.

In both cases it's been so hard to try and get my head around the fact that it is just so easy and straightforward for some people and so incredibly drawn out, painful and complicated for others. I'm so happy they haven't had to experience what I've gone through, but there's definitely some jealousy of that too.

We are currently on month 9 of TTC again since the loss last year. Just feels like it's not going to happen 😞