Please let me down (gently)

[littlelizzard]

Background - had MC last year at 7.5 weeks, didn't really process this at the time, cracked on with life. Dealing with some delayed grief at present.

LMP 14th March. Had unprotected sex on 24th March. Following week had cramps and a small bleed. According to health app was due period anytime around 14th of this month. Been feeling (hoping) I'm pregnant, did a test few days before AF due, and have done one this morning since I'm officially "late". All negative.

Think I know deep down I'm not pregnant but the want to be is strong despite knowing it's statistically very unlikely and now these tests are pretty much confirming that. Suppose I'm just after some gentle telling that I am indeed not pregnant, and hopefully AF arrives soon and I can stop torturing myself

Hi OP, first of all I’m sorry to hear about your MC.

If you are officially “late” now then you would expect to see a positive pregnancy test now. But just because you’re not pregnant this month doesn’t mean you never will be, ttc is incredibly difficult and I honestly think is the biggest mindgame there is. Be gentle with yourself and good luck! X

@Mrsttcno1 Thank you for being so kind. We are not actively TTC but since the MC if there has been any slip up of contraception (two times max) I find myself relentlessly trying to calculate the likelihood I will be pregnant. It's very hard. Made harder by the fact my partner has now said he will not purposely try for another child. My MC was the result of one slip up of contraception so it's created this feeling in my brain, hard to describe

Bless you @littlelizzard it is really difficult. X