Accidental bfp? Line eyes....

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I'm handing over my sanity to the folks on the internet - earlier this week I started feeling familiarly weird and thought I had better take a pregnancy test, just in case. Well, this is what happened.
Some relevant info:

• I am waiting for my divorce to come through. I live with my partner (NOT my ex husband).
• My partner and I think a child is in our future but right now is the worst timing possible.
• I have a 2yo daughter from my marriage.
• I have no clue where in my cycle I am as I have various endocrine conditions and literally just had a Mirena coil removed. My daughter took 2 years to conceive and I genuinely thought I was reproductively broken.

Do we think this is an evap/indent line? When I was actually TTC, I never had these on pink dye tests. They were either 100% negative, or the test I had with my daughter. I am not aware of ever having had a chemical pregnancy before.
Just wondering whether I need to prepare myself for a rough time or whether I'm being paranoid. I'm driving myself crazy obsessing by myself.

Looks positive to me. When did your Mirena come out, and did you have any unprotected sex in the 7 days leading up to removal? Are you on any contraception now?

Yeah that looks positive to me OP.

The test does look like an early positive, and you are experiencing the same symptoms you had with your daughter.

You will find the right way forward, whatever that might be xxx

@WetBandits Mirena came out about 2 weeks ago - yes, we have sex most days and while I was on coil, unprotected (I mean...it's kind of part of the point...)
I had to have Mirena removed because it slipped and was causing pain. I'm not currently on any contraception as I thought I would take the chance to give my body a break. Have been 'sensible' since Mirena came out though so God knows how this potentially happened. It took the full 3 mins to come up (although so did the control line) and darkened afterwards, pic was taken an hour or so after i took the test.

@Casimira thank you for your encouraging words. I'm still hoping its a weird test or an evap line. It feels so wrong for this to be happening now when my daughter was such a struggle to conceive.

My point was that any sex in the 7 days before the Mirena came out is a risk as sperm can hang around in your body for up to 7 days. If the Mirena had slipped, it wouldn’t have been protecting you adequately so you would’ve been at risk of pregnancy then too.

I’d test again tomorrow with FMU, if it’s positive I’d make an appointment at an early pregnancy unit as whilst the risk of falling pregnant with a coil in is tiny, the risk of that pregnancy being an ectopic rises to 1 in 20.

@WetBandits Oh God, nobody told me about the risk of ectopic. That's good advice, thank you. I bought a pack of 2 so I'll do one tomorrow morning as you suggest and go from there.

Defo looks like an early positive to me. Do you mind me asking if there was anything you done differently when you conceived after two years of trying? I’m about to hit the 2 year mark and never had a hint of a BfP. Love a good success story! Feeling blue 🙃

@TTCbaby1soph Yes - we gave up! I literally went "well, I'm never going to get pregnant" and properly stopped thinking about it/caring and then my daughter was conceived.

I really hope you have your success soon. It can feel like an endless merry-go-round of pointless hope - but there are success stories out there and you will more than likely be one of them.

That is literally where I am right now. I just can’t do it all anymore. I’m making myself unwell. Think it’s time to leave it all in Gods hands and if it doesn’t happen it was never meant to

Thank you for the encouragement, sometimes I just feel like it’s never gonna happen man

@TTCbaby1soph I do honestly believe what the old folks say about "relax and it'll happen". Our bodies naturally know when it's not right to conceive and if your stress hormones are through the roof it might be contributing. Not medically proven but I've heard so many people have similar experiences to me. We decided to go down the "not trying not preventing" route and conceived in that cycle, which my endo said was a minor miracle. I hope that giving yourself a break helps you.

Have been 'sensible' since Mirena came out though Sorry, but what does that mean? You have been using condoms?
Looks positive. Have you tested again today?

What does 'being sensible ' mean? Rhythm method? Condoms?

@DSD9472 @WeeOrcadian Condoms!

Tested again last night early clear blue digi - "Pregnant", then today, FMU early clear blue digi and boots early "not pregnant" and negative, then lunchtime today faint pos on boots early.

how frustrating !

Update, another clear blue early digi positive but REALLY faint line on a boots. I just think I'm going to have to keep checking at points throughout the week if AF doesn't arrive. 😩

If your lines don't get darker over the next few days, I'd suspect a chemical pregnancy.

The fact it's picking up on a digi I'd say pregnant. Weirdly enough this time I was getting really faint tests, yet every digi was positive and the weeks was going up. I'm now 25 weeks. The cheap ones just did nothing really weird!

@TeaPleaseX that is so bizarre - which cheap ones did you use? I swear the boots early ones used to be the best I could find but the last few batches I've had have taken FOREVER to even show a control line (normally the control comes up straight away when the dye reaches it).
I used a Clear blue normal sensitivity one yesterday and got a ghostly ghostly ghost of a line after 5 mins which I wrote off as an evap.

It was boots own, Sainsbury’s and then a few of the pink tipped ones from £1. I was convinced I was going to miscarry. But I'm still going and have a girl arriving this summer. The cheap ones used to be so good. You have to keep us updated now. I'm so invested.

Some very definitive positives now. I'm absolutely heartbroken as there's no way I could conceivably go through with a second pregnancy right now - especially not for my daughter's sake. I can't bear the thought of what I have to do, but I have no choice. Wish me luck. Thanks everyone for your input the last few days.

Oh dear, I'm sorry you're not happy about this, OP.

@TheShellBeach I would love to be able to be happy. I want to have the baby. My partner wants to be a Dad. I just can't right now, as it's not right for the daughter I already have, mine and my partner's job situation, the fact I'm still waiting for my divorce which is taking forever and ever.....😢

I am so sorry this is not the news you are wanting. You can only do what is right for you and take your time to process everything . Take care of yourself.