TWW after chemical pregnancy

[BeWiseZebra]

We have been trying to conceive our first for 11 months now, at 9 months we finally got our positive tests only to result in chemical pregnancy. I read so many stories about people falling pregnant immediately after a chemical and that got me through the next month but then the failed attempt at month 10 really hit me hard. I think the chemical finally sunk in once I saw the negative tests again and I struggled to want to carry on this month. Now it's month 11 and the TWW helplessness is really killing me. I've not told anyone we are trying so feel really alone with no one to talk to about it. I know some people try for a lot longer before getting pregnant so 11 months might not seem like long but I am very type A personality and the tww where there is nothing more i can do to make it happen and my body doesn't feel like my own every month is starting to really get to me.

Hey @BeWiseZebra I am sorry for your loss. I definitely feel you! I am on month 11 TWW too (2dpo today) and I had chemical pregnancies month 1, 3 & 4 but nothing since. I would have had a baby by now if it stuck so I am finding it really hard this month.
It's really tough and I just wanted to reply to let you know I'm here, struggling with the same thing as you. It's such a tough time and emotions are always worse in the TWW. I can't say anything to make it better, but I think knowing others are going through the same thing helps :) x

Thanks @LacedBouquet it does help to not feel alone. I have a very close network of friends and usually talk everything out with them when I need to get things off my mind but this is something I really feel like I'm going through alone, my husband is obviously there but it just doesn't seem to be affecting him in the same way

My husband is the same. I think it’s easier for him not to be ignorant to it rather than facing the facts that it could be him. He has agreed to do a sperm DNA fragmentation test in May and I’ll do a hycosy then too to check tubes. Will do it private though because nhs waiting lists are so long.
I just wish this process was easier, people I know are now onto ttc second baby and no doubt they’ll be preg with second before I am with first baby