Bit of venting

[Marinaautumn]

Hello there! I just need to let this out somewhere because I'm feeling very overwhelmed with all the emotions. This is my 4th cycle into my ttc journey and so far the one when I felt the less "hope", since I didn't even manage to track my ovulation well so I had to guess my fertile window and even then only baby danced twice within the window and one of them not sure if it was even that successful (I'll spare you the details).

So I've been having the odd beer and the odd unwashed vegetable totally sure that I wasn't pregnant. Even after having a crazy amount of CM around 7 dpo I didn't succumb to getting excited or testing early or tracking symptoms on my app etc. Wonderful for my mental health! But my AF was due today or tomorrow and I saw what I thought might be a few new Montgomery tubercules on my nipples (which might also have been there before and haven't noticed) and I had very loose stool for the past week (spicy food, I originally thought).

So now I'm managing again to get excited and convince myself mentally that I'm pregnant and that I should test tomorrow morning! I just don't want to be too excited if it's not gonna happen this cycle as I logically think it shouldn't since we didn't "buy that many tickets for the raffle"

Anyway. Just needed to vent a little. If anyone reads thank you and I'd appreciate a little virtual hug <3 this is an intense journey, TTC is. Baby dust for us all!

Hey, you say you only did it twice, but remember it only takes once!. Good luck to you xx

if it helps you keep rational 9/10 symptoms and signs that people identify as early pregnancy, are often not usually the case. HCG levels provoke symptoms at 6 weeks, where progesterone can create symptoms beforehand - this also peaks before before your period starts.

when you factor in things like miscarriage and chemical pregnancies, it’s always prudent to test close to when period is due

All the best this time. I so hope you get what you want.

Of you do not, I think you need to calm yourself. I say this through horrible experience. It is absolutely soul destroying to approach ttc with tests and windows and such shite.

That is the preserve of the desperate in my experience.

Just have frequent fun sex. It is so much more likely that you will conceive that way.

Getting too fixated too quickly is a killer of sex. Actively trying is a killer of libido,

Buckle up 7 years is absolutely nothing in terms of ttc at many ages.

Thanks everyone! I just did a test and got a BFN :( I'll keep on keeping on, stay calmer next cycles (I do still think I was impressively calm this cycle only until yesterday) and just hope for the best! Best wishes everyone and thank you for your replies.