I know there will be other threads similar to this but needed to put my thoughts down! I’m not very good at communicating with my friends as I struggle to share bad news and feel a bit of a failure as they have no issues.
I’ve been convinced pretty much my entire life that I’m unable to have children, don’t know why it is just a gut feeling. I sort of hoped that I would fall pregnant instantly to prove myself wrong but after 7 months of TTC the worry has converted to a solid fact in my brain!
My OH was trying with a previous partner for around 1 year so I know there could be problems on his side (no testing or anything on why they were unable to). I have not only diagnosed myself with everything going related to infertility but have also done the same to him. Obviously it’s not something I feel I care share with him relating to his fertility as I don’t want to make him worry or assign blame when it’s not at all proven (he currently does not have any concerns over his own fertility and typical man thinks it was his ex).
I know on the NHS you need to try for a year before intervention (I’m 30, he is 39) but every month gets harder! I’ve always wanted to be a mum so badly and worry it’s not for meant for us.
Typing this makes me think pull yourself together it’s in your head and if I read someone else saying this I would say don’t even worry yet. But you think about it so much when TTC it sends you crazy!