Suspected implantation bleed 11dpo but bfn 12 dpo

[mrspeanutbutter]

I realise that this post might make me sound like I've lost my marbles and I think maybe TTC has finally driven me round the bed.

Had very light pink spotting on Sunday night (11dpo) so tested Monday (12dpo) and got a bfn. Today AF is due and I just feel miserable waiting for her to show up. I absolutely hate this bit. I've also noticed that my resting heart rate has dropped today on my Apple Watch, which I'm taking as a bad omen. Anyone had a similar story ending in a BFP or am I clutching at straws?

I know I could test again but I really don't want to see another one line on those tests.

We had an early MC in summer last year and this is my first cycle trying since the. and I just feel totally overwhelmed by it.

I'm very lucky and have a DS who's two and a supportive husband. I just don't know why I get so obsessed with TTC so quickly. Like, it takes so much real estate in my brain. Sorry for the rant. I just needed to get this out of my system 😂

Hi @mrspeanutbutter ive nothing helpful to add, but just wanted to offer some solidarity! I had a miscarriage a few months ago & trying to conceive again. I feel totally consumed by it. Hoping you get the result you want soon

Thanks so much for the reply. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.
I've just done another test and obviously it's a BFN. I sometimes wonder what's wrong with me. I get so obsessed with OPKs, symptom spotting, and the TWW. It's like a really bad rollercoaster ride. Obviously, my body thought it was fun to add some spotting into the mix this cycle, which I've never had before. Ergh.
🤞 We get bfps soon. X

@mrspeanutbutter i can totally relate. I had what I think is an evap on a test this morning. Have also been testing past few days, and had slight lines, then totally blank tests. Also now have spotting & cramps so I’m sure AF will be here tomorrow like it’s meant to! My hopes rise & then get crushed! It’s so difficult.
I’m sorry for your loss too. It’s such an awful experience to go through, and I didn’t realise how all consuming going through the process again would be after you have had a loss

I really appreciate you reaching out today. Ttc can feel very lonely sometimes. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you that you get good news (if not this cycle then next).

I'm also pretty sure I'm out and waiting for a new cycle to begin. I don't know about you, but all the stories about fast bfps after miscarriages has meant that I hoped it wouldn't take as long to get pregnant again but I think I may need to change my approach to think that it may not happen quickly. I think I need to work on nice distractions so that I don't turn into a total weirdo, although I fear that's already happened.

@mrspeanutbutter you’re so welcome. It’s always good to chat to someone who understands.

I feel exactly the same - have been feeling really down this week. I have been testing for the past few days & getting my hopes up that I could be pregnant. Then just get plunged back to reality when I’m not.

I’m also trying to find distractions, but it’s difficult to get out the negative head space! I don’t think with it being January that it helps, with dark evenings & just a bit of a miserable month!

Hi ladies, hope you don’t mind me joining.. I also had MMC end of November at 12 weeks scan 9w5d (started bleeding in the waiting room!)
we are Ttc baby no 3, currently 10-11dpo and also getting BFNs, AF due Monday. No implantation bleeding (never had it previous 2 pregnancies) but feeling exactly same as you both, symptom spotting, driving myself around the bend too. Hopefully AF stays away and we get our BFPs in the next few days. Testing everyday and not even a faint xx

Hi @jerry2000 im sorry that you have also found yourself in this position. What an awful time you’ve been through. I had a MMC at 10 weeks and was the worst experience I’ve ever had.
I sympathise completely with how you’re feeling - unfortunately seems very normal to have these feelings!
I feel like next cycle I need to try off early testing as it’s so disheartening, but easier said than done!