Scared to test

[Alice89R]

Hey,

I have been a long time lurker. I am aware this sounds a little bit silly but does anybody else get scared to test?

We have been trying since we got married in 2022. I’m now 34 and husband is 36. Used to POAS multiple times each month, however, seeing negatives each month used to break my heart.

We have recently had initial fertility tests with GP whilst awaiting an appointment with fertility clinic. All my tests were fine but husband came back with only 18% progressive sperm (very low motility).

I haven’t POAS for months now and have just waited for AF to show. This month I’m now on day 30 of my cycle. My usual cycle length is 27/28 days like clockwork. My apps are now telling me to test but I feel like I’m scared to do this. I know this sounds crazy but I don’t think I can see another negative.

I don’t really know the point in this post but I think I just want to see if anybody else has felt like this before or if I have lost the plot? TTC has been the most stressful time! I haven’t even mentioned to my husband that I’m late.

Thank you 😊

I completely understand - the not testing still allows you to hold onto that hope doesn't it when you've had so many BFN's.

Sending you all the hope that this month is your month! 🤞

@Alice89R I've got my fingers crossed this month is your month 🤞🏼

I think you could be right @BeautyAndTheBump1. Who knew TTC could be so mentally exhausting!

Aw thank you @Angelselevenx

xxx

With my first I definitely felt like this and like you I decided to stop testing after about 6/7 months of trying because the negatives used to devastate me. We conceived him on our tenth cycle and I didn’t test until my period was 2 days late, it was a blaaaazing positive. I remember the night before I used an OPK and said to myself if this is positive I’ll test tomorrow morning and it was the darkest line I’ve ever seen on an OPK! Best of luck to you! Please update us ❤️✨

Aw thank you @L00k4m3x I haven’t used opks for the last few months either as it was causing me to obsess! I have just used flo and pre-mom and tried to dtd as much as we can. Husband struggles with this sometimes due to the pressure of it all.

Every month I have had a different symptom and convinced myself it was the month. This month the only symptom I have had it slight cramps and my tummy has been rumbling a lot.

Good luck ladies I hope it is also your month ❤️ x

Don't test I'd say then. Wait another 5 days, and if AF doesn't show then test. It's not unused for AF to be couple days late, so I can understand your sentiments.

@Alice89R I agree that even OPKs can lead to obsession. At one point I did them 3 times a day! 🫣 I temped at one point too and I’d sit and stare at my chart several times a day, I honestly was very obsessed. This was mostly when ttc my second though, who again took 10 months.

I have just found out I’m pregnant with my third, it has quite literally come as a shock as I was definitely expecting it to take almost a year again. We didn’t even do the deed on ovulation day, to say I’m shocked is an understatement.

I really am crossing my fingers and toes for you! 2 days late when you’re usually regular as clockwork is looking really promising though 🤞🏻

It’s stressful isn’t it. I always thought we would just get married and then be pregnant like all my family and friends. I never thought it would be this hard!

Ah congratulations on your little miracle! I still haven’t tested, going to see if it doesn’t happen tomorrow then test. ❤️🤞🤞

AF arrived today. Never ever been this late.

On to cycle 17 🙃

I'm sorry to hear that OP, it's really shit isn't it?
I don't know if it helps you but my DS1 took 48 cycles (no fertility problems, apparently?!) And then my DS2 took 1 cycle!
So I suppose what I'm saying is don't give up, because it WILL happen x

Thank you @BosworthBosworth and congratulations on your little family! However, I don’t know how you coped with 48 cycles!

Sorry for your disappointment, must've been heartbreaking considering how late it is.

Well done being able to hold off for so long, it's very hard to keep level headed after TTC for a considerable period. Best of luck for when you next decide to try