Will it ever happen

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Have been ttc for almost a year now. I fear now I'll never have children. My partner suffers from anxiety and depression and is now looking into using medical cannabis to help his anxiety. I'm worried about what this will mean for the health of his sperm. His mental health also obviously affects his mood. I'm struggling with the lack of affection and intimacy at the moment as it is. He hasn't had a sperm analysis, he's anxious about it so kept putting it off. Will now need to request another form from his GP. I'm thinking maybe I just need to start making peace with not having children (I'm 38), though I don't think I ever really will. I think I need to tell him that we need to just let this dream go, his mental health trumps it, doesn't it? I feel so awful right now. Does anyone have any advice or experience of medical cannabis?

His MH doesn’t trump your wants & needs.

Does he actually want children or is he using his anxiety as an excuse to not have sperm analysis done?
Is he already taking prescribed medication and getting counselling for his A&D?
You don’t have to give up on your dream of children but, and I say this as someone who’s suffered anxiety and depression for decades, you have to decide if this is how you want to live the rest of your life.

Thank you @OwOwHolyCow I don't want to make his condition worse obviously. I've had people on other forums say I should put his needs before wanting to ttc so I guess thats stuck in my head. When he's not feeling so low we do dtd and both initiate. He wants to know when I'm ovulating etc and has been genuinely excited about starting a family. He is currently on medication for his anxiety and depression yes. He understands that when he is particularly low as he has been recently that its very hard for those around him. Maybe I need to be more honest about the impact it has on me sometimes. I thought I might wait till the new year at least before I talk to him about whether we stop ttc or not. I really don't want to give up on having children. Thank you very much for responding I really appreciate it x

I'd ask for some tests from your gp to check overall health of you both. They can do a blood test to check if your definitely ovulating, sperm analysis for him. I'd also be asking for a referral to check tubes ect.
Currently expecting my first after a long fertility struggle. I'm 38 too

Has he sought any professional help?